Sunday Finnegan is the definition of chaotically detailed. She is powered by coffee thanks to her addiction of reading smutty books till 3am, cheerfully goofy and optimistic to a fault.
She's fresh out of Quantico and already has her first big girl...
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Last night with Sunny was unimaginable. I wasn't planning on having sex with her, in fact I'm still a little stunned it happened at all. I don't imagine anyone truly plans sex but I definitely did not. I struggle to show my emotions and I don't always understand what I'm feeling and I can have a hard time expressing it. Especially when it comes to explaining all of these new feelings I've been experiencing when it comes to Sunny.
That's why my birthday was so awkward with her. I've never had someone who not only listened to my ramblings with fascination but someone who remembered what I said. She made sure my birthday was everything I would want compared to other birthday's where others just assumed what I would like. I've never had anyone care so much about what I wanted.
We share multiple common interests and she's the first women in my life that I connect with on an intellectual level. Sometimes it feels like she knows exactly what I'm thinking without saying a word. I'm in a constant bundle of nerves and excitement around her.....I've stumbled on my words numerous times but she understands more than anyone else. She stumbles on her words probably more than I do when we talk.
Sunny is captivating. Everything about her is extraordinary. How she can be so intelligent one moment then have a quick witted comment in the next breath leaving everyone chuckling. The way she gets overly excited about mundane things. For instant the clicker or a good cup of coffee. Most of all, it is the way she makes me feel seen....makes me feel wanted.
I'm not entirely sure what this budding feeling in my chest is. I've thought about talking to Morgan or Garcia to help me make sense of things. Of course Morgan has experience with a lot women, but I'm not really sure I want to expose whatever this is between her and I, not yet. With Garcia I know what I say will not be secret for long and I don't want Sunny finding out my feelings from someone else. But last night made those budding feelings more intense, and I need guidance on what I should do.
Every time I touch her, a simple brush of our hands in passing or holding her hand the entire night at the Phantasmagoria it brings a sense of peace and a jolt of excitement. When we interact with others durning cases I struggle to connect and stutter over words during simple conversations but when I touch her it gives me a confidence I've never had before. I want to feel that all the time.
I know that it defies all logic, that science is real and I can depend on facts and statistics but she feels like sunshine, and I don't know how to consciously understand this feeling when it opposes everything I know.
We are sitting at the table in the debriefing room and I can't stop looking at Sunny. Vivid memories of the way she blushed underneath me and the noises she made has my heart beating faster than my normal resting heart rate. I slip my hand underneath the table placing it on her thigh. My urge to kiss her is higher than ever, if I'm being honest it was harder than I thought it would be to come to work today and act like I didn't have the most incredible night with her.
