Science of Owls

Hanging on the feeling

Chapter 5

My mind exploded. I spaced out.

I had an odd vision running around my head, it was almost like a dream...

I could see myself leaning up to hug him, or something more. I saw it from third person, as an on looker.

In my head it felt nice, he'd put his arms around me , and hug me back . Maybe even more.

Hot breath against my neck-

" you ok there Nazz?" he asked , snapping his fingers in my ear, " little bit glassy eyed there"

" hah yeah I guess ..." I trailed off to look at the floor.

" well, see ya in the buss lines" he said and walked over to his friends.

That afternoon was a mind field.

Something had clicked in me, I had had small crushes on guys before, this was... different? I was over reacting to things, jumping , and imagining the scenes in my head!

I was rather quiet on the bus ride home, listening to what he was saying but thinking about what I felt.

This was new... I mean , he literally gave me this nervous feeling, I couldn't settle it down . I couldn't repress it . Push it down.

" and then he swung the sword right into his own foot haha" he finished his story . I smiled up at him.

"haha, yeah ..." I trailed off. I didn't notice before but he was leaning in towards me as he talked, his smile was scary in a sense that it was so nice too look at.

" are you ok? You're really off today, you're not sick are you ?"

" mmm no , maybe , I don't know!" I said flustered, and faced the window.

" what do you mean you don't know, get better before tomorrow, I need help with scoring" he smiled .

" stop it , yeah ,yeah I'll be fine " I said... maybe a bit more angrily than I anticipated.

" I see then... see you tomorrow" he looked confused as he walked off the bus.

That night my sketch book was filled with crazy sketches, and depressed paintings.

One was a girl trying to climb out of a crevasse , she looked like she was falling and everything was a dark mess of shadows. I made some demon like figures in the rocks and highlighted their faces and features. This girl, I made her me. My features. Long , curly , brown hair, maybe slightly blonde. She was wearing blue and red , only because they were some of my favourite colours. The expression on her face was distressing.

She was reaching for something... I drew in a hand. And painted it the best I could to his skin colour.

" let's see how this goes ... " I whispered.

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god damn it it's awkward ...