Science of Owls

weasels

Chapter 64 

Id like to say I talked to him that night. But I didn't .

We were all sitting in the games room, or sitting in the cold outside. We could play cards or watch a movie as entertainment.

I had picked up a packet of cards and we were playing a big of scum, with Felix, Connie and the rest.

Noodle , Amelia and Eve were no where to be found.

I played three rounds with everyone, happily. Felix sat the last round out to go to the bathroom. He came back looking a bit flustered.

" what's up with you?" I asked and put down double aces , winning the set.

The group groaned as I won again, leaving me with only 3 cards.

" nothing, don't worry , don't go outside either..." he said quickly.

I looked at him suspiciously.

" should I go outside Felix?" I asked him, raising my eyebrow.

" no , definitely not" he shook his head.

" take my turn... don't loose on me ok !" I stood up , he too my last three cards.

I weaved my through the crowded room to the glass door. I didn't even have to walk out the door to see it...

Outside , sitting against the wall was Noodle, Amelia and Eve.

Amelia was casually sitting on his lap, playing on his phone and pulling his hair out of his head. Eve was laying on his shoulder , laughing, playing with his shoulder. I could see he was shuffling the cards in his hands.

Wow...

I don't think he even realised what he was doing... or what it looked like anyways...

Then I guess that odd thought occurred again. Was I really just standing there watching, watching the way he treated them ... He was being cute and touchy feely with them... or he didn't mind when they were with him.

Then Amelia saw me staring at them from inside the glass. She beckoned me over, the others didn't notice. Eve was too busy talking to Noodle.

I shook my head and weaved my way back through the crowd of people, I didn't sit back down to play cards... I walked straight through and out the back door to the back area.

There were 7 outdoor electric heaters and benches to sit around. The place was empty and big. There were hardly any lights on.

I sat down at a bench and put my hands in my head...

What am I doing?

Getting jealous over that!?

The voice changed.

You had dibs on him first? They're bitches for stealing him!

I began to rub my hair around my head and pull at it.

Nazz! You can't trust them , you can't believe anything they say!

They're weasels!

Why do you feel like this?

You've never felt like it before?

Why start now!?

" naaahhhhhh!" I groaned in agony of my own thoughts.

The door bust open and Connie walked over.

" hey... saw you walk out... you ok?" she asked, walking over.

" umm" I began.

" were they ... at it again?" she asked, and I nodded.

That was all I needed to do to make her come over and hug me. She made me feel protected.

And she crackled when I hugged her.

" what's that?" I asked , pouting a little.

" what ? these?" she said , pulling out a packet of snakes from her bra.

We smiled and opened the packet.

" you know, I was going to share these tonight, I bought em from the vending mechine" she smiled at me, through a half-eaten snake.

" hehe, glad you didn't" I laughed, " don't share with bitches to be honest"

" don't share the sneke" I laughed. The sugar taking its usual effect.

" hehe naa way, Eve dun't deserve it hehe" she giggled.

" Connie, how long do I have to keep lying to keep people happy?" I asked, looking at the dark sky.

" to be honest, I have no clue... you didn't lie that one time and well, you know , he hasn't treated you any different" she said.

And that was true... he didn't like me back, no matter how cute I was, how cat like.

I was still just the favourite friend who could ignore him for a day then make up with him.

" do you think that its odd, that he can like two girls at the same time? Or the fact that he can play me as well? But I reckon it's crap that my own friend could drag me off a couch when I was getting some thing, when I was doing some thing good! I mean the other one just cock blocks me all the time! I mean I can just stand next to him and she pushes me out of the way, fuck it's not fair! They knew, Amelia knew, Eve especially knew! Why the fuck can they do that so easy!? Sorry but do they not think that I'm a fucking human too! I mean he calls me a kitten for fucks sake but ... does that mean that they're hurting a kitten... animal cruelty! FUCK " I laid back and took a breathe.

" Nazz.." began Connie .

" naaa... maybe she dosen't know what she's doing wrong? Do you think she does? She must if she knows the effect it's having on me! Holy shit Connie, my cheeks some times burn when I cry myself to sleep... or my throat hurts... I just ... fuck I hate watching! They know, and it hurts , honestly I can't watch them with out getting all worked up ... I mean , fuck!" I trailed off.

" well shit... I mean I think we found the illuminati" laughed Connie and we fell to our backs laughing.

" but yeah" I mumbled.

And we walked back to our cabins.

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