Science of Owls

Just a friend ... Just fine ...

Chapter 12 

I walked home dejected that day. I often stopped in the middle of the street just thinking.

I shouldn't be mad at him, he doesn't even know what he did wrong. That is kind of unfair.

" wait ... if he did know though?" I began talking to myself.

If he did would he still be talking to me, and playing soccer? Would I be one of his good friends?

" he'd probably hate you" , I dragged my feet.

The sky had become clear and a pale blue colour, warm wind drifted through my hair.

It curled and flew behind me.

But maybe he might secretly like you back?, said a voice in my head .

" NO!" I said to myself, stopping again.

Good point , he likes a completely different type of girl.

" shut up!" I said picking up my pace as I walked.

There were so many different thoughts buzzing around my small brain. I knew very little about these situations. I had small fancies for celebrities and boys who played in bands. But this was different. He was in reach ... I'm not sure how else to say that.

" shut up ,he's just your friend!" I tugged at my hair.

But being friends is just the beginning!

"NO!" , I must have looked mad walking home this afternoon.

That night I had one new friend on skype and whatever else the kids are into.

I held off talking to him, that was probably for the best.

I'll stop being such a basted. He did nothing wrong, maybe he'll help me we'll be fine , it'll all be fine....

I drifted to sleep.

And had an interesting dream.

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a very interesting dream... i have no idea where this is going ! 

this is messed up,  this is now not based on real events at all, my god. i guess personal awkward experiences ... but yeah , kinda gone of the beaten track now , so ...