Science of Owls

my throat burned

Chapter 18 

" what...?" I stammered. My mood had instantly dropped.

" I asked her out today , before the bell went" he said, he looked away from my deadly gaze.

" you... asked..." I mumbled, I could have strangled him!

I had no idea how to help myself, I couldn't change the way I was for him , but god did I want him. He only sees me as a friend... and like Eve said... I should have done something before this happened.

" yeah I did, and depending on the result I wanted to be around someone who wouldn't laugh either way" he said, smiling to me. I wanted to wrap myself around him and sit in his lap , kissing his neck . Telling him he had made a mistake... she probably was just playing around with him and that he'd hate her in two weeks. Or maybe that was his plan with me ...?

" which way?" I said, I could barely make a sentence I was that shocked.

" well if she says yes, I'm going to be happy"

" what if...."

" if no, then I'm going to try not to slit my wrists, and I thought you might be the best person to be with if that does happen" he said gloomily.

" IDIOT!" I yelled and pulled my knees up to my chest and buried myself into my hair ... this would be the part where I would be sketching or listening to music usually .

" what , she said she'd text me her answer! Don't get all crazy on me Nazz, not today come on!" he said putting a hand on my shoulder.

" get off !" I said and pushed him away, I sat up and stared at him.

" what!?"

" don't hurt yourself Romeo" I said , and rolled my eyes.

" shh... I didn't expect to like her ok" he said... the mood dropping again.

" of course... but she does fit into your qualities" I spat back.

" yeah, but like I could have gone for anyone"

Not me apparently...

"but you chose a bi-", I was cut off by his phone beeping in his pocket.

" shit!" we both said , and looked at each other.

" well look at it!" I yelled at him.

He pulled the phone out of his pocket, I could see the tense fear in his face.

He was genuinely scared of this moment . He didn't want his heart crushed... He should also be scared about how I might try and attack him.

" yes... YES !" I yelled , throwing his arms back.

" what, she said yes!?"

" YES OH MY GOD !" he yelled again , standing up and pumping his fists in the air.

" holy shit... congratulations..." I smiled, I wanted to cry.

I stood up too.

" urghahahah! YES!" he yelled again, he picked me up from my waist and swung me around . I Held onto him and I felt weightless for a few minutes.

His hands were warm , my shirt slipped up a little and I could feel their brilliant warmth.

"good luck idiot" I whispered in his ear. I kissed his neck lightly and he continued to swing me around like a little girl.

I don't think he even noticed my little kiss, too happy I guess... I hope he didn't. I hated how I could put on a happy face but die inside. It was painful, this feeling. My throat burned and my stomach turned. My eyes were building up tears behind their hazel colour... I just had to hold them back long enough .

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on an unrelated note, i like pocky ...