Never Expected (a Chandler Riggs/Grayson Riggs fanfic)

What Next

I walked away from Chandler, passed Grayson and Hana who called out to me.
"We're ready to start!"
"Not now!" I growled.
I walked up the stairs and into Grayson's room. I literally slammed the door behind me, I slammed it so hard it locked and was impossible to open. By the look of it.
"I can't believe him, like seriously! He was going to sit there and watch them kill me! What a bitch!" I said to myself. "Fucking selfish bastard!"
"I should've just killed myself back then. I would've and I'd attempt it again. But there is one way that would be much easier..." I looked over at my pillow. "If I could just jam my knife into my throat I could just be done with it and if I don't I can just feel like I will regret it."
I walked to my pillow and was about to grab my knife, when I heard Chandler's voice call out to me.
"Daniel, I know what you're going to do and let me tell you it's NOT worth it. Can't we talk about this?"
"There's nothing to discuss! I'll be better off dead and who knows maybe Grayson and Hana knew about this! Hell before I know it they'll be telling me that they're "sorry," and that they "should've told me!" I snarled.
"Trust me, they don't. I was wrong to wait this long to tell you, I was just worried as to how you would react. You're my brother now and I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to you. I love you and I'm glad that you're a part of this family. If it wasn't for you Grayson would've been dead by now and if you kill yourself you're not just hurting me. You're hurting Hana, Grayson, our parents, and even your parents. Do you really want to do this? You'll be hurting a lot of people, including yourself. Please, just think about what you're doing. I know you don't want to do this. You care about us way too much to end your life now. So please, just think about it. Do you really want to take your own life? Think about it, please. If not for me...do it for Grayson. Do it for Hana. Do it for your girlfriend, do it for your parents and our parents."
I still took out my knife and took a deep breath. I then looked over on the bedside table and picked up the picture with me and Grayson side by side. I just stared at it for at least three minutes. My eyes started to glisten with tears. I dropped my knife and brought the picture close to my heart and just let my tears fall. I wasn't crying, I was just sad. I didn't want to end my life and lose all of my friends and I knew they didn't want to lose me.
Chandler called out to me again.
"Hey! Is everything all right!?"
I was about to respond when I started crying lightly, I was the only one who could hear myself cry and Chandler was kind of worried since I wasn't responding and all.
"Hey! Is everything all right!?"
I didn't respond.
"Come on, please answer me!"
I still didn't respond.

A few moments later...
Hana and Grayson had come upstairs and approached Chandler.
"Babe. What's wrong?"
"It's Daniel. He's not answering me. I told him something that I knew was going to shock him, but I didn't know it would make him try to commit suicide again."
"What did you tell him?"
"That I was there when they were threatening Daniel to help them with their plan and that I was watching as they closed in on him with their knives."
"Why didn't you do something Chandler!? If you would've done something Daniel wouldn't be blaming himself each and everyday. Hell, he's still having dreams about that day, sometimes I can't sleep because of it and because I'm worried about him."

Back to Daniel...
I called out to the others.
"Guys, can you just leave me alone? PLEASE!"
"Of course, we'll be back to check on you later, all right?" Hana replied.
"All right. Thanks Hana." I cried.
So Grayson, Chandler and Hana descended down the stairs, entered the living room and just sat down on the couch worrying and wondering what their friend was doing. They didn't like the thought of leaving him like that, but they thought it would be best, even though they were risking a lot of things.
"Did you guys see the way the door was closed?" Grayson wondered.
"Yeah. There ain't no way we'll be getting in there, unless we cut it down with an axe." Chandler responded. "I just can't believe I got him that mad."
"Well, he was in a life or death situation and you did fuck all." Grayson stated. "You know I wouldn't be surprised if he called you a selfish fucking bastard, and if he did I'd agree with him. If I was there I would've done something."
"He did it to you too Grayson." Chandler announced.
"I know, and I know he would've done something but who knows they could've had someone standing behind him with a knife incase of something like that happened." Grayson implied.
"Guys! Stop! This is no time to argue. We need to be focussing on the task at hand, we need to break down that door before Daniel tries to commit suicide or tries to hurt himself." Hana voiced. "For all we know he could be dead right now."
"You're right Hana. Daniel is our top priority right now." Grayson exclaimed.
"I guess I'll go get the axe." Chandler spoke.
Back to Daniel...
Once again I had my knife in my hand, I placed the blade on the side of my arm and took a deep breath. I held the knife tightly and pulled it back viciously. I even did once more.
"Fucking Chandler! Why didn't he do something!? He was there. He could've stopped everything from happening. Well, everything from me joining the bullies, to Grayson getting beat up and getting only one of his Carotid Arteries cut. Grayson nearly died and he wasn't there to protect him, but I was. He could've stopped me from running away." I said to myself.
I heard footsteps approaching, but I also heard Chandler call out to me.
"Hey Daniel! I'm sorry I didn't do something, I wasn't thinking...."
"No shit!"
"Please hear me out."
"Fine!" I sighed.
"The only reason I didn't do something is, well, because I wasn't sure what they would do to you if they found out someone was eavesdropping. If they didn't have their knives out I would've helped you out, I was just trying to keep you alive. If I would've revealed myself they would've stabbed you repeatedly until you were dead. I'm sorry, all right? I'm sincerely sorry, from the bottom of my heart I apologize and I would do anything to make it up to you."
I just remained silent, I wasn't sure of what to say. It took me awhile to break the silence, but I finally found something to say.
"Get me out of here and then I'll tell you what you can do."
Chandler got in front of the door and swung the axe. When the axe made contact with the door it got stuck a bit, but Chandler managed to get it free and swung it again.
In total it took about five hits before Chandler could kick the door down. Chandler was the first to enter and when he saw me he instantly hugged me, I had no choice but to hug back and that's exactly what I did. The hug lasted about twenty seconds before we separated.
Chandler looked at my arm.
"You cut yourself, didn't you?"
"Yes and I accept your apology. I also have to apologize to you for being rude. Telling you that you should be sorry and then walking away, I even owe Grayson and Hana an apology. I was rude to them as well."
"Well, you can apologize to them while I go and get the first aid kit."
"All right, thanks Chandler."
"No problem brother."
Chandler then left and the others entered. They approached me and also noticed that I was bleeding, but they didn't say anything. They were just worried.
I looked up at them and sighed.
"Hana. Grayson. About what happened before...I'm sorry, I was kind of a jerk speaking to you the way I did."
"It's all right I forgive you." Hana exclaimed.
"As do I." Grayson announced.
A few moments later Chandler had returned with the first aid kit and approached me. He knelt down, opened, took out the cleaning alcohol and a cloth. He applied some of the contents onto the cloth and then he began to clean the cut.
"You know Chandler I can clean this cut myself." I spoke.
"I know, but I'm almost done. All we need to do is just cover it." Chandler responded.
Chandler set the cloth aside and then got out some gauge and the bandage roll. He opened up the package for the gauge and handed it to me.
"Can you hold it over your cut, please?" Chandler asked.
"Sure thing." I replied.
I did as Chandler asked and held the gauge over the cut, while he got to work with wrapping the bandage over it at least three to four times before he cut the remains of the bandage off and made sure nothing was hanging by running his hand around the bandaged area.
"Thanks." I said.
"No prob." Chandler voiced. "Can you please stop cutting yourself? You're really worrying us all. When we see that you're hurting yourself like this we think you're going to end up killing yourself and we don't want that, none of us do."
"I'll stop." I declared.
"Good." Chandler said.
Hana and Chandler were the only ones to leave, Grayson stayed behind. He approached me.
"I can't believe you would do this again and for what? What are you trying to accomplish? Suicide is never the answer. If something is bugging you tell me, please. I need to know if everything is ok. You've lost so much and I can't help but feel like you're doing this because of the loss of your parents and your girlfriend. You got to remember we're here if you need to talk to someone. If you need to talk I'm all ears." Grayson announced.
I was hesitant to speak. I couldn't find the right words.