heaven-sent - Pablo Gavi

29. mother knows best

Lucia's POV

Pablo 🦅💞

merry Christmas, te amo.

happy holidays pablito, te amo

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I woke up rather late and went downstairs to greet my mother who was lounging around on the balcony. The good thing about the canary island was the weather. Since I traveled here, the sun was nonstop shining with temperatures of over twenty degrees.

After I made myself a coffee, I joined her on the lounge chairs.

We sat in silence for a few minutes just soaking up the warm sun, but you could feel a wave of sadness looming over us.

„Is Pablo in Sevilla?" My mother broke the silence and I knew it was a good opportunity to talk with her about it.

„Mhm, in Los Palacios y Villafranca to be exact." I mumbled.

"I thought you would go with him, but after you cried the day you arrived, I guessed something must've happened between you two." She took my hand in hers and tried to reassure me with caressing the back of my hands. The stress and sadness bubbled up inside of me for the nth time these last weeks, and the tears flowed freely again.

„It just hurts so much Mama. It should've been my dream to move to Barcelona and become a part of this club, but my physical and mental health just got so much worse over the months." She pulled me into her arms as I was crying into her shoulder.

„The dream turned into a nightmare. I've never felt this bad as I do now. I feel like I don't deserve Pablo.

He's giving up so much for me, always looking after me or trying to cheer me up, only because I'm struggling. It just all became so confusing and I didn't know what was right or wrong anymore. Escaping felt like the only right thing to do, just going away and not having people scream and insult or even follow me." I was still sobbing, but my Mama always had wise words to help me.

„Lu, honey, I'm very sorry you feel that way. If I had known how bad you were doing I would've come to Barcelona immediately."

„Don't feel bad, you already do enough to help me. I promise."

It was quiet for a few seconds before she turned around to face me properly.

„Look, being only nineteen can be so confusing and frustrating. People want you to act like an adult and expect you to already know everything there is to know. Even more frustrating is, when there is a camera shoved in your face at all times and people criticizing you for loving a boy. You did nothing wrong, so I understand why you made this decision. You are overwhelmed and that's okay, but do you really think you will be better if you shut out Pablo of your life?" My mother always had good words and I knew she was right about what she was saying.

„Of course I won't be better without him, but I feel like I'm too messed up for him to love me." Thinking of Pablo made everything worse. I missed him so much and just wanted to return back into his arms, wishing none of this had happened.

„Don't think that Lucia. The boy adores you. When I first heard you were dating a professional footballer, I was like „Oh gosh" because of all these stereotypes towards them. But as I met him, I realized what a good guy he is. The way he cares and looks after you is very special, and I've only met him for a day! I only saw this type of love once with your father. He will understand why you asked for a break, but please consider talking to him. Pablo is the person who makes you happy, who cares and loves you so much."

„I've made such a stupid mistake." I exclaimed and threw my hands frustrated into the air. My mother was right. Shutting out Pablo of my life just made everything worse.

„Do you think he'll forgive me?" I whimpered, afraid Pablo would not want to see me again.

„Don't talk nonsense honey. I've said it before, he loves you way too much to be angry at you for taking a break. If you're honest and explain it to him I won't see why it wouldn't work."

It was the first time in days that I genuinely smiled and wrapped my arms around my mothers neck to give her a hug.

„What's going on out here?" Finally my father appeared too.

„Just having a girls talk." My mother said and I grinned, wiping my tears away.

„Well I think it's more like a talk about Barça's number six hm?" He teased, but was showing compassion.

I only nodded but he came up to me to give me a peck onto my cheek.

„He loves you. Think about it."

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I spent the rest of the day visiting my friends, also having to explain why Pablo wasn't here with me.

At home I cried again after seeing an edit of me and Pablo and I knew I had to do something about it. Just then my phone dinged again, Fermin's contact popping up on the phone screen.

Fermin

How are you holding up

terrible

I've made a big mistake

Do you know if he's still in Los Palacios?

He told me until the 3rd

How's he doing?

Not well, he misses you a lot

Do you think he wants to see me? I want to fix this

Of course, he would always want to see you. he's not angry, just heartbroken.

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a/n: you really thought i would let my babies break up bffr???!!! A short but promising chapter for today:)))