Stop Using Me {suna x uke male}

book 2 chp: 38

Suna followed, raising a brow as he had to pick his pace up. (M/N) was quick when he wanted to be and it was hard to keep up with (M/N) sometimes. Especially now as he practically lost (M/N) in the many, many, many halls.

Luckily, he knew where everything was and spending so much time in (M/N)'s room had become second nature. 

He walked in and saw (M/N) packing a bag. It held a couple of climbing equipment, weapons, snow gear, water and some dried food. Suna blinked, he had no clue all of that stuff was in his room, but then again he never really went snooping for those things.

"Where are you going?" Suna asked.

"There's something I have to take care of, I can't tell you where I'm going until I'm back." (M/N) titled his head to the side and looked at Suna, "I'm sorry. It's classified right now."

Suna frowned, a spike of anxiety hit. His heart didn't want to calm down, he wasn't liking this one bit. His gut was telling him to keep (M/N) away, to fight him in this, but (M/N) was leagues above him in strength.

"You can't tell me?" He asked rather quietly, feeling way smaller than he should be.

(M/N) walked out the door with Suna following. He was quiet a bit, furrowing his eyebrows before looking at Suna. He softened at the expression, the anxiety and yearn for (M/N) to stay.

"I can't. Only Jay knows, if everything goes well, I'll tell you. But ears can be everywhere."

Suna grabbed his arm once they were near the meeting room. Everyone already in there as Jay and Kita stood at the front, waiting for (M/N) and Suna to come in.

"Then take me with you."

"Absolutely not!" (M/N) quickly said, almost looking fearful on Suna joining. "What I'm going to be doing is dangerous, even for me. I'm not putting you in harms way."

"All the more reason for-"

"No. Do not fight me on this Suna."

Suna flinched at his last name more than the stern tone. He went quiet, not looking at (M/N), he had no clue what to do now.

(M/N) sighed out, dipping his head lower to get in Suna's field of vision. A frown creased his face as he cupped Suna's cheeks.

"I'm sorry." (M/N) said quietly, only for them to hear as everyone was looking. "I didn't mean to say it like that. I'm just worried, okay? I can survive anything and everything, but it's very, very dangerous. It's not fit for anyone else but me to do, I won't do that to you, I can't lose you."

"Come back?" Suna asked, wrapping his arms around (M/N)'s waist.

"Always." He responded.

Suna sighed out, not completely on board or happy about this, but he felt somewhat better. He had faith in (M/N), and it was nice to hear him say he's coming back. He just hoped it was true.

Suna kissed (M/N)'s lips, the man smiled into the kiss. It was sweet and gentle, a touch of possessiveness on (M/N)'s end. Once they pulled away, there was a soft red hue to (M/N)'s cheeks and his (E/C) eye shined just as his gray-white eye held a bit of color.

They walked into the meeting room. Inarizaki and Deadly Dragons in the room, waiting on the two most important people in the room.

(M/N) stopped in front of everyone, hands clasped behind his head as he looked into the room. Over the years, he had to calm his anxiety from the first time at Inarizaki. He was the new boss, he had to be stern, straight to the point, confident and leave no room for argument in the tone of voice.

He ignored the same spiking fear of anxiety in his heart and stomach that Suna had. He also had a bad feeling about this, but if he suddenly dies out there, at least he'll come back.

"I will be leaving, and I don't know when I'll be back." (M/N) said firstly, his bi-colored eyes in a blank glare.

Suna jumped, looking at (M/N). Suna doesn't know how long he'll be able to go without seeing (M/N), those two years killed him and he fell apart daily. This is why he should go with him! Suna opened his mouth to say something, but (M/N) lifted a hand to silence him.

Suna closed his mouth, he's never done that before. He's never silenced Suna. This must be very serious and dangerous and Suna is hating every second of it.

"While I'm gone, Rin is in charge. You will go to him with the same things you'll go to me about, unless it's marked classified than wait until I get back. You will treat him with the same respect and fear you have with me, I don't want to come back to complaints."

(M/N) then looked at Suna, giving a reassuring smile, even if it didn't quite reach his eyes. He put his hand on the small of Suna's back briefly for comfort, then pulled back right after.

"If you need help, don't hesitate to go to Jay. He's been my right hand man since he's come to Deadly Dragons, he knows how I run things and how I like things to further go. Kita will also probably help because it's Jay, but don't hesitate for the both of them. Okay?"

Suna was quiet, he bit his lower lip in thought. It was deathly quiet and (M/N) was waiting patiently for a response. For Suna to tell him what he wants to hear, but Suna didn't give in that easily.

"It's not okay and you know it." He hissed, "You can't just up and leave for God knows how long." He seethed through clenched teeth, loud enough for only (M/N) to hear.

(M/N) tilted his head, "Okay?" He asked again, not addressing the issue. He wouldn't address it until after he gets back, only for the safety of Suna.

Suna took a shaky breath, his fingers curling on his pants. He looked at (M/N), "Okay." He finally said, looking away.

"Good." (M/N) said, adjusting the bag over his shoulders. He looked back at everyone, "Any questions?" But his tone contradicted his words. He was leaving no room for questions or other people to speak, so everyone stayed silent. "Perfect."

He nodded to Jay, kissed Suna's lips one last time before he left the room. His footsteps didn't even echo down the hall or in the meeting room and that hurt Suna a lot more than he thought.

He always assumed he'd hear if (M/N) left, to memorize his footsteps and hear when he comes back. In this case, that didn't happen as (M/N) was way too quiet for anyone.

"Please come back." Suna whispered so quietly, only Jay and Kita heard.

The two looked at him, their gazes softening at the man. They didn't say anything, not wanting to accidentally send Suna down in a spiral before (M/N) comes back, everyone knows how (M/N) would react if that's the case.

Jay walked to Suna, clasping a hand on his shoulder. "He'll be fine." Jay reassured, "He's (L/N) 'Hidden Demon' (M/N). Besides, I bet you'll be a fantastic boss."

Suna smiled slightly, looking at Jay. "Yeah, you're right."

"Course I am, I'm the right hand man." Jay gave a playful cocky grin, puffing his chest out.

Kita adored Jay, smiling at the older man. Suna chuckled, feeling much better. It was no wonder (M/N) trusted Jay, the man knew the right words and what he was doing. He'll be okay, the both of them will be reunited again.

"Now, why don't you go see your friends. If we need anything, we know who to go to."

Suna nodded, "Thank you." He softly said, a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.

He walked to Inarizaki, the twins jumped up excitedly. It's been so long since they've hung out, they were thrilled. Suna smiled, cocking his head and the three left. After Suna left, everyone started getting up to leave too.

It was only right to leave after the boss as he was the head and the one in charge. Suna was in charge, he called the shots and they would respect and fear him just as they do (M/N). They rather keep their life than go against (M/N), Suna, Jay and Kita.