Stop Using Me {suna x uke male}

book 2: chp 26

not proof read correct if you see mistakes

It was like slow motion as Suna kept his eyes on (M/N) through the double sided mirror.

(M/N)'s eyes dilated, the blackness in his eyes more visible than the (E/C) colored that Suna loved so much. His feet were frozen, not knowing what to do. Then he saw (M/N) jump a bit, like he was re-experiencing every little detail of the memory, that instead of waking up before everything happened, he's reliving what the memory didn't show.

Suna finally found the courage to move when (M/N) crawled off the bed. It didn't even seem like he felt the pain or hear the slight crack of his elbow when he hit the tile floor. Tears were cascading down his face, and Suna was gone.

Suna didn't hear the rest of his friends calling him, didn't hear Jay giving him a warning that (M/N) could hurt him.

Suna burst through the room, eyes scanning. Suna caught the fearful eyes in (M/N)'s expression when he heard the door. Suna winced, he didn't mean to slam the door open and cause more noise, he was just trying to get to (M/N).

(M/N) couldn't even get up, he crawled backwards keeping his eyes on Suna. He was very fearful that if he looked away, that man would get him like he always did.

Suna felt so bad, he took a deep breathe, he gently closed the door.

"Angel it's me." Suna quietly said, trying to reassure (M/N).

The male shook his head, backing himself into a corner. He was quietly sobbing, still trying to get as far away from them as possible. He felt them being watched, and he glared at the double-sided mirror.

This was their private moment, they already invaded his private memories -even if he couldn't remember them- and now they were trying to see how Suna would take care of (M/N). He didn't want to speak to (M/N) and say things that would always make (M/N) feel better, that was their moment. He knows how to calm (M/N), he didn't want to put (M/N) through more vulnerability that was already shown.

(M/N) was the strongest, and Suna would do anything for (M/N) to keep that image up and destroy it in private. Let him hold onto him and let only him see (M/N)'s vulnerability and tears. Then he could swoop in and help him and pull him back up.

"Stop looking at us, this is our moment." Suna snapped.

He wanted to throw something at the mirror to get rid of them, but that would only cause more harm to (M/N). Jay sent Suna a text that they left the room, then showed proof with a photo.

Suna took a deep breathe, beginning to slowly walk towards (M/N). He watched (M/N) scoot further back into the corner. Wincing from his back hitting a weird spot, whimpering from the fear and crying from the memory. Everything was clenching Suna's heart.

He just wanted his Angel back.

"Angel, I won't hurt you." He quietly said, "I promise I'm not the man from your memory."

He walked closer, he wanted to stop and leave the space between him and (M/N), the sobs grew louder with each step Suna took. yet, he pushed through. He wasn't going to give little space between them, he would give enough room for (M/N) to breathe, but he was going to be close enough to get across he would help (M/N).

"S-stay back! I didn't do anything wrong!" (M/N) sobbed out, it sounded just like his younger voice when he was freaking out.

Suna stopped walking, he squatted down to be leveled with the man he loves. He kept his distance but he was still close whenever (M/N) would recognize him.

"No you didn't do anything wrong, you didn't deserve any of that. Angel no one isn't blaming you, I'm not blaming you. It's me, (M/N). Your Sunarin, your cowlick, your lover." He said quietly and calmly. Keeping his tone gentle, wanting (M/N) to hear him.