Stop Using Me {suna x uke male}

book 2: chp 27

"Let's check on your bandages." Suna said.

For awhile they were cuddled up in Suna's bed, it had been so long since Suna actaully slept in his own room. This was the first time in months almost a year that Suna's even looked at his room. First thing (M/N) wanted to do was clean the dusty room. It caused Suna to chuckle, but he helped anyways, wanting to take the load off of (M/N).

So after spooning (M/N) and nuzzling into his hair and neck, giving light feathery kisses to his skin, Suna came to his senses. Even if the light giggles and closeness they shared distracted Suna for a bit. He was snapped back into reality when (M/N) shifted, scratching his bandages, Suna knew that was a habit when he was uncomfortable.

He did that at the boat mission.

Suna got up, gently laying (M/N) to relax on his bed.

Suna went to gather more bandages, a rag and a bowl of water just in case. He walked to see (M/N) trying to sit up. Suna rolled his eyes, putting his stuff down and walking to (M/N), he helped the male sit up a bit.

"Can't you ever wait? I'm always here to help."

"I know, "(M/N) sighed, "it's just..."

"Hard, I know Angel." Suna patted his head, kissing the top of his head.

(M/N) smiled, it was soft and small but it filled Suna with warmth. It made Suna feel accomplished. He grabbed (M/N)'s gloved hands, rubbing over the leather before kissing them.

"Why do you wear gloves now?" Suna asked.

(M/N) looked at his gloves, eyes going dull before he looked back at Suna. His eyes changed from dull to a bit of light, it was nice looking at Suna. It always gave (M/N) peace looking at Suna. (M/N) sighed out, squeezing Suna's hands.

"Holding your mother twice when she's either dying or dead, you tend to see her blood every time you look at your hands." (M/N) said nonchalantly, but a bit of longing hinted into his tone. "I used to  imagine that she was alive and I still had a nice life, but now all I can see is her blood all over my hands. It's my fault that she died... twice. Can't stand to look at my hands."

Suna softened, frowning at (M/N)'s explanation. "It's not your fault." He softly said, "None of it is your fault and you know it. It's that man's fault, I won't pressure you into taking off your gloves, but I need you to know it's not you fault. I will always be here to reassure and help you."

(M/N) softened, his smile widening. "Thanks, now let's get my bandages cleaned and changed."

Suna nodded, helping (M/N) take off his shirt. His fingers tracing the bandages, causing (M/N) to shiver and straighten his back. Suna looked at (M/N), giving a soft expression. Under normal circumstances, Suna would've been smirking, but it seems now was not the time.

Suna carefully took off the bandages, sighing that his stomach and chest looked nice. Then, he helped turn the male over because the wounds were on his back. There Suna winced, it wasn't too long ago when Alizer traced his tattoo with markings and making it a bloodied tattoo.

The blood was still dried over and definitely needed to be cleaned.

Suna wet the rag, wringing it out and gently cleaning (M/N)'s back. (M/N) shifted and shivered at the cold water. Suna patted his head, silently reassuring (M/N) it would be okay. After so long, he dried (M/N)'s back, putting some gauze and rewrapping (M/N)'s back and stomach.

(M/N) hummed, it felt nice being taken cared off, especially after getting his memories back. He snuggled into the bed and pillow, closing his eyes. Suna watched him, he never felt so happy to be jealous of the bed again.

Suna went to drain the bloodied water, wringing out the rag again, tossing it in the sink and putting the rest of the bandages and gauze away. He walked back to his bed, crawling in it and hugging (M/N) from behind again.

"We should've showered before cleaning my wound and getting into bed." (M/N) mumbled with his eyes closed.

Suna wiggled his eyebrows, "We? You want me to join?"

"Always." (M/N) simply said, shrugging his shoulders.

(M/N) snapped his eyes open, squeaking when he felt Suna grabbing him. He was lifted over Suna's shoulder and walking towards his bathroom.

"Rin-"

"It's shower time, let's not ruin this moment." Suna said, one hand holding onto (M/N)'s legs and the other on his back gently.

(M/N) snickered, lifting his head up and smiling at Suna. He rested his cheek on Suna's head, Suna grinned and put him down when they were in the bathroom. He left to grab some clothes they could sleep in.

"You do realize I'm still wearing bandages-"

"Then we'll take them off, shower, put them back on, dress, kiss, sleep-"

"I get the point." (M/N) snickered.

Suna grinned, kissing the top of (M/N)'s head, his hand around his waist. He snuggled into him, it was niece holding (M/N) again. Made him feel special and wanted, especially when (M/N) leaned on him for support.

"Shower time, Cowlick." (M/N) flicked his forehead.

Suna chuckled, quickly taking his clothes off and (M/N)'s clothes off so they could take a hot shower. The water already perfected to the temperature (M/N) loves showering in.

"No funny business, I'm not in the mood tonight." (M/N) said.

"I won't, I'll take it slow with you Angel."

Suna would never put (M/N) in an uncomfortable position, not wanting to put a repeat on his past memories.

They got in the shower, (M/N) had his arms around Suna's neck as Suna grabbed his waist. They nuzzled their noses together and kissed as the water pelted off of them. First they cleaned Suna's room, now they're cleaning their hair and bodies. It was something they both needed, having each other and just being near each other was their comfort.

They just needed each other.

After they showered, Suna seemed rather excited to dress (M/N) like a pampered doll.

"You know my arms and legs work just fine."

"Yeah, and?" Suna questioned, pulling the sweatpants over (M/N) and a shirt.

"Never mind." (M/N) chuckled, kissing his lips.

(M/N) began walking towards Suna's bed, Suna pouted because he wanted to carry (M/N), but he'll just have to settle with cuddling him. Suna jumped in the bed before (M/N), causing the strongest male to jump a bit in surprise.

Suna shifted the bed and blankets, making it an opening for (M/N) to crawl in next to him. (M/N) pursed his lips, nodding slightly in understanding. He just stared at Suna as he finally looked up at his Angel.

"What are you waiting for?" Suna asked, shaking his hand in a 'hurry up' motion.

"Was just curious, but I put the pieces together." (M/N) said.

(M/N) crawled into the bed, hugging Suna's waist and nuzzling into the male's neck. Suna grinned, kissing the top of his head and hugging (M/N) back. (M/N) threw his leg over Suna's waist, the blankets being draped over them.

(M/N) yawned, closing his eyes and feeling content. This was everything he wanted and it was something he should have all the time. But the time isn't right, they can't be together fully just yet.

"Sleep now, Angel." Suna muttered against (M/N)'s (H/C) hair.

"Don't have to tell me twice." (M/N) said.

He instantly fell asleep, Suna smiled and hummed at the peaceful look in (M/N)'s face. Suna closed his eyes and fell asleep as well. Everything will fall into place and they can stay in each other's arms.