right now i have the urge to make over
i'm going to go grab my switch blade
and i'm gonna carve out my insides starting with my heart.
my brain is next,
rearranging it part by part.
today i've consumed nothing but junk and acid,
i have the urge to throw it all up.
i'm a new person,
i want to change my every bit.
i don't feel real,
my name has been carmen from the start.
warning right now im gonna skip class to walk.
im gonna burn those non existent calories,
away from the staff i will run.
my friends will be confused,
my wrists should just be cut.
tbh sometimes i just feel like a worthless slut
im filled with scars,
but my insides have more.
but like i don't care lol
im a different person again.
i want new ears,
i wanna hear cusses from every mouth,
but if they come from certian people,
i will shiver up and pout.
nvm im a new person again
now i just wanna shout.
bro i didn't take my meds today?!
is that why my i've barely eaten today and only eaten junk food?
whatever im just gonna go watch tv
the mania has ended already
first mania episode of the ripe age of 14
happy belated birthday to me :3
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