We found us | Book 1

I lied

Bill:
I see Evi disappear through the front door and slam the door shut.
I hear louder moans coming from Tom's room and I put on loud music to muffle the sound.
Evi drives me crazy, but it's clear she doesn't want a relationship. Again, so typical, if you have feelings for someone, they are of course not mutual.
Every time I see her I feel butterflies in my stomach and I want to press her as close to me as possible.
Every second of the day that I'm not with her, I think about her. And after tonight, I don't know how to go back to just being friends.
Maybe I should go to her? She's probably still awake. Or maybe I should just send her a text?
I take my phone from the table in the living room and open Evi's messages. I start typing and look at my screen in doubt.
I delete the message and start typing again. Finally I hit send. My heart races wildly and my hands get clammy, waiting for an answer.

Bill: Are you still awake?
Evi: I just got home, so yep, I'm still awake.

I bite my bottom lip, nervously.

Bill: Do you mind if I come over? I want to talk to you about something.
Evi: The back door is open, you can come straight through my room.

I suddenly get a smile on my face and jump off the couch.
I go through the garden to the back door of her house and walk inside.
I walk to her room, knock softly on the door and open it. I close the door again as quietly as possible.
"What did you want to talk about?" She asks me.
Without answering her question, I walk over to her, press my lips firmly on hers and wrap my arms around her waist. She places a hand on my chest and stops the kiss.
I look at her longingly and take a step towards her, which causes her to take a step back and stand against her desk.
I effortlessly pick her up and put her down on her desk. I can see the lust in her eyes and press my lips on hers again.
She opens her mouth willingly and I bury my hand in her hair. My breathing accelerates and I feel my heart pounding in my chest.
I give kisses on her cheek and in her neck.
"Bill," She moans softly. "I-" I silence her by pressing my lips back to hers.
I gently stroke her cheek. She grabs the edge of my pants and pulls me closer to her.
I let my hands slide under her nightdress, which she had already put on, and stroke her back and along her side.
I stop the kiss and look at her. Our breathing has accelerated, our faces barely millimeters apart.
"I lied." She looks at me questioningly and leans back a bit. "I do want a relationship."
I lean towards her and hover millimeters from her face, our lips just not touching.

Evi:
"Bill," I say softly. "I don't know if I'm ready for a new relationship."
Every part in my body wants to feel his touch, to feel his lips on mine.
All these feelings are so new to me, that I don't know how to deal with them.
The lust I feel for his touch is something I have never experienced before.
I place my hand on his neck, pull him closer to me and press my lips firmly on his.
We become involved in an intense kiss, my tongue caressing his. I feel him press his hips close to me and I wrap my legs around his waist.

I open my eyes the next morning and look straight at a sleeping Bill lying next to me.
Mixed feelings rush through my body. Why is it so hard to just follow my gut?
Why do I always have to weigh and weigh everything, why do I always have to doubt endlessly?
Why can't I just throw myself into a situation for once? I turn on my back and sigh.
"Hmm." I hear next to me and turn my head. "Bill, are you awake?"
He opens his eyes barely and looks at me.
"Bill, you need to go home. My parents can't know you're here." He closes his eyes again and I give him a little push.
"Bill!" I whisper. "Wake up!" I shake him a bit, without much result.
I look at my alarm clock, which is next to the bed on my nightstand. My parents probably already left and Nick is probably still in bed, so now is the time to get Bill out the door.
I stare at his sleeping face and gently bite my bottom lip. In one smooth motion I crawl on top of him and press my lips firmly to his.
I feel him kiss me back and his hand buried in my hair.
He turns us onto our sides, my legs wrapped around his waist so that one leg rests on his hip.
His tongue gently caresses my lips and I willingly open my mouth. He rolls me further onto my back so that he is lying on top of me, his body pressed against mine.
He grabs both of my hands, intertwines his fingers with mine and holds them pressed to the pillow next to my head.
He moves his lips to my neck and gently sucks on my neck. A soft moan leaves my mouth.
I'm startled from a knock on the door and I open my eyes.
"Evi, I'm going to town, okay?"
"Um, yeah, see you later!"
I hear my brother's footsteps going down the stairs and not much later I hear the front door slam shut.
"Do I still have to go home?" Bill looks at me, his face just millimeters away from mine.
I slowly shake my head 'no' and Bill presses his lips softly to mine again. I feel a rush of desire and lust go through my body.
Follow your feelings, I tell myself in my mind and I let my hands disappear under his shirt.
I gently stroke his side and when Bill's hand disappears under my shirt, a soft moan leaves my mouth.