We found us | Book 1

Just, relax

Evi:
We walked home, hand in hand but in complete silence.

I follow Bill into his room and softly close the door behind me.
Bill walks up to his desk and starts taking of his jewelry.

"Bill," I mumble quietly. "just say what you wanna say, please."
He turns his head a little, looking at me through the corner of his eyes. "I have nothing to say."
"Then ask whatever you wanna ask. I know you are holding back, I can feel it."

He turns around, crossing his arms, staring at the ground in front of him.
He sighs deeply, uncrossing his arms again and letting his hands rest on the desk.
"I don't wanna fight." He mutters.

"Me neither, but it has to be done. I'm not sure how to continue if not."
He makes eye contact with me, the pain visible on his face.

"I'm not gonna apologize for sleeping with Tom." I start. "And I'm not gonna stop being friends with him."
"That's okay." Bill says quietly, almost inaudible.

"I just don't understand, why Tom? Do you have feelings for him? Or was it just to hurt me?"
I hesitate for a moment, not sure how to answer this question.

"It was not to hurt you. I just didn't wanna feel the pain anymore. It was less painful when I was with Tom."
"I'm sorry." Bill stammers.
"I did wanna hurt you, just not like that." I add.

He nods. "How many times did you have sex with him?"
"I don't know, Bill." I say, slightly irritated, but I to don't wanna fight anymore. "A few times, I didn't really keep count."

"When I came to your room, why did you do what you did?" I look at him, furrowed, not immediately understanding what he is referring to. "I don't know." I stammer.

"I didn't even understand why you came to my room in the first place. Why you still seeked my attention at all."
"I couldn't stay away." Bill whispers, looking into my eyes.

I notice his eyes are glinstering from the tears he is holding back. "Did you like it?" He asked, again, still looking into my eyes.

"You already asked me that."
"But you never really answered."
"What do you wanna know? If I had an orgasm?"

I break eye contact with him by looking at my own hands and sigh deeply. "Yes.." Bill mumbles and I look at him in surprise. "I wanna know."
"Are you serious?"

He nods again. "Yes."
"Bill, what do you think? Of course I had. Didn't you have one with Brenda?"
"I did."

It stays quiet for a while. I'm waiting for the next question, but Bill stay quiet just like me.

He comes up to me, looking into my eyes and gently grabbing my face, kissing me on the lips.
He starts pulling on my dress, trying to pull it over my head.
"Bill, the zipper." I say as I notice his struggle.

He turns me around, a little rough and quickly opens my zipper.
He freed me from my dress and pushes me onto the bed, rougher than I'm used to from him.

He pulls his shirt over his head an drops it on the floor next to him before he crawls on top of me, kissing me, his hands exploring my body firmly.

I move my hands to his jeans and pull it over his hips.
He kicks his pants off, making it fall on the ground.

I moan softly as he moves his hands to the edge of my panties and gently stokes my lower belly.
He takes imy panties of, kissing the skin that was first covered.

Bill:
I press a kiss on her lower belly as I let my finger slide inside her. I kiss my way down and as I reach the right spot she moans approvingly.

I squeeze my eyes shut tightly as once again, Tom and Evi cross my mind.
I wonder if he ever touched her just the same way as I am doing right now.

I put a kiss on her lower belly and crawl back on top of her, my finger gently thrusting inside her, my eyes still closed completely, my mind wandering off.

I pull my hand away and kiss her softly. Her hand slides down from my chest to my lower belly and a shiver runs through my body by her touch.
"Bill," I open my eyes a little and look straight into her eyes. "what's wrong?" She asks me, referring to my limp penis.

"Nothing." I say and quickly kiss her again.
She pushes me off her, making me lay on my back. "Let me help you with that." She looks at me and bites her bottom lip, before she kisses her way down.

I feel her tongue caressing my dick and I close my eyes again, trying me clear my head and focus only on her touch.

"Evi," I say and grab her arm, making her stop and look at me.

She looks at me questioningly. "What?"
"It's not gonna work, I'm sorry."
She comes closer to me, kissing me on the lips.
"Just, relax." She whispers, kissing me again.
I close my eyes briefly. "I can't, sorry."

Evi:
He pushes me away softly and my heart stars to race, not sure what to do.

"You know, I never did this with, uhm-" I don't finish my sentence, not wanting to say his name.
"You never did this?"
I shake my head. "No."

"Why not?"
"I only do that with people I love." I say as I linger closer to him. I press a little kiss on his lips, one on his cheeks and one on his 6neck.
"Just, relax. Let me finish what I started."
I put one last kiss on his lips before I kiss my way down again.

A soft moan leaves his mouth when I take his dick in my mouth, slowly moving my head up and down, closely watching his reaction to my touch.

I notice Bill relaxing.
Finally, I think to myself, and keep doing what I'm doing.

I focus on every moan, on every sign he gives me to encourage me not to stop.
And I wont, not this time. I will give him exactly what he wants. No teasing this time.