We found us | Book 1

What did I do??

Evi:
I open my eyes the next day and immediately close them again. My head hurts and when the memories from last night come back I jump out of bed.
"Oh my god!" How could I be so stupid?! How can I ever face Tom again?
I take my phone from my nightstand and start typing.

Evi: Kim, I did something stupid..

Maybe a shower will make me feel better. I walk towards the bathroom and remove the make up that's still on my face from last night.
I take a quick shower, blow dry my hair, put my hair into a messy bun and put a little bit of make up on.
After I put on my jogging and hoodie and walk downstairs.
My mom, dad and Nick are in the kitchen having breakfast.
My head is pounding and I go sit down on the kitchen table.
"Good morning." My parents say and I force a little smile on my face, trying to hide my hangover.
"Coffee?" I look around the table and mom gets up and comes back with some more coffee.
"Since when do you drink coffee?" Mom asks after she filled my cup with coffee.
"Coffee is not the only thing she started drinking recently." Nick says and I give him an angry look.
"Oh, really?" Mom looks at us and I shrug my shoulders.
I take a big sip of my coffee and stare at my phone. Kim didn't answer yet, so I assume she's still sleeping.
I open the messages from Tom and start typing.
I stare at the screen for a while and delete everything I wrote again. Maybe it's better to discuss this face to face?

Bill:
"Was it late yesterday?" I ask Tom and he looks at me with a big grin on his face
"What?" I look at Tom questioningly and he wiggles his eyebrows.
"What did you do?"
"Nothing."
"Tom?!" I raise my voice a little.
"I could have done a lot."
I look at him confused.
"Lets say she was ready to lose her virginity to the Tom Kaulitz." I look at him with my eyes wide open and it feels like someone just stabbed me with a knife.
"You're joking..."
"Don't worry. She was to drunk for me to act on it."
I can barely hide the disappointed on my face. I thought she was different, but I guess I was wrong. Maybe it's a good thing that she didn't kiss me back the other night.
"We are leaving in half an hour, be ready!" Tom distrubs my thoughts. I look at him a little confused. "We have a meeting with David, remember?"
"Right, sorry. I forgot, I guess."

Evi:
I decided to go for a little walk after lunch and end up in a park I haven't seen before.
It's a little quiet park with a lake and a big weeping willow with a bench under it.
I sit down on the bench and enjoy the warmth of the sun on my skin.

When the park starts to get more crowded I decide to go home.
I open the front door but before I can walk inside Tom and Bill arrive. I turn around and when my eyes crosses Toms I can feel my cheeks turning red. Last night flashes through my mind and I quickly look away.
When they walk my way I try to act as normal as possible and greet them.
"Hi!" I say.
Tom nods and looks at me with a grin on his face. I feel my heart pounding in my chest and I try to avoid eye contact.
"Hi." Bill says softly with a little smile on his face.
Before I have the chance to answer him he walks inside.
I look after Bill questioningly and then look at Tom. "What's wrong with Bill?"
Tom shrugs his shoulders.
"He's been acting strange all day."
I nod and look at the door Bill just walked through.
"Uhm, Tom?" I lower my eyes but force myself to look at him again. "Sorry about yesterday, I have no idea what came over me and-"
"No worries." Tom interrupts me.
I breathe a sigh of relief.
"Do you have plans for tonight?" I ask Tom.
"We might go to that party, I'll let you know!"
"Okay!"
We both walk inside our own house and I close the door behind me.
I walk upstairs to my room and I turn on my laptop. I take my phone out of my bag and see that Kim finally answered my message.

Kim: I saw that...

I look at my phone a little strangely, saw what?

Evi: what do you mean?
Kim: Check Facebook!

I take my laptop, go sit on my bed and put my laptop on my lap. I go to Facebook and scroll through my Facebook feed.
It doesn't take long before I come across the pictures Kim was talking about.
Pictures of me with the guys at the party earlier this week, and pictures of the same pictures on the cover of a magazine.
Against my better judgement I scroll through the, now hundreds of comments, untill one particular comment catches my eye. A comment from my ex..

"First of all, that guy is gay, and second of all, she could never get him. Who wants a girl who doesn't want sex? Haha!"

I stare at the comment and feel anger boiling up in my body, but at the same time I feel hurt.
How dare he say these things online for everyone to see?! Even in a different country, miles away, he's still able to get to me.
Somehow I also feel shame. It's not a secret that I'm a virgin, but I just don't like the fact that everyone can now read about my virginity online.
Tears run down my cheeks and I slam my laptop shut. I wipe away the tears and lean my back against the wall.
Not much later I hear a soft knock on the door.
"Go away, Nick!"
Another knock immediately follows. I jump off the bed and open the door with a big swing.
"I said go away!" I expect to see Nick, but instead I look right in the eyes of Bill.
"Ow, uhm, sorry."
I gesture for him to come in and close the door behind him.
"I uhm," I stammer. "what are you doing here?"
He shrugs his shoulders.
I go sit down on the bed and let my back rest against the wall.
Bill takes place next to me.
Without saying anything I open my laptop again and show Bill the pictures I found on Facebook.
"It's just some pictures, just ignore it."
He looks at me and I shake my head. I scroll untill I find the comment from my ex again and show it to Bill.
He looks doubtfully at the screen and turns slightly towards me.
"Is that your ex?"
I nod and I lower my eyes.
"Is that why you, uhm," He stammers and looks at his hands, like he is looking for the right words.
"why you and Tom, uhm," He stops talking again and a sigh leaves his mouth and I nod softly.
I feel a tear roll down my cheek and quickly wipe it away.