Loving, Mr Waters

CHAPTER FOUR

THANDO
Now don't get me wrong I know I may have overreacted when I saw Matthew with Ruth but in my defense he shouldn't have allowed Ruth to get that touchy feely especially after all the flirting we did last night. I also know that I probably acted like a spoilt brat when I banged the door without greeting him but he should have known better not to flirt with that woman. I contemplated apologizing to him but I'm afraid he will see through my jealousy and I still don't know whether he also feel this pull between us. After I got his text today I had a hard time focusing at work but thankfully I got through the day just fine.
I'm at my house now, just finished cleaning to keep busy and not text Matthew asking him what time he will get here. I'm wearing my shorts which shows my toned legs with my black baggy top and bare feet.
He did say he loves my legs so why not show them?
Okay fine! He said I have beautiful legs but point is to keep seducing him even if I'm a bit angry at him.
Don't judge. I'm not cheap in any form and in this situation I know I'm the one who has to make the first move, I just know Matthew will fight this pull between us because of his fears and I can't allow that without at least trying. This is the second time Matthew will be in my house in a row and that makes me very happy. He's been here with my friends obviously but this is different which is why I'm nervous.
Could this be the moment I've been waiting for? God, I hope so.
I open the door and there he is wearing his blue three piece suit looking like a super model.
God, it's like I'm under a spell every time he's around. I can't ever keep my eyes to myself.
"Hi." He says his voice sounding shaky breaking me from the spell I'm under.
Is he as nervous as me? Matthew is one of the most confident people I know so seeing him this nervous is new to me.
"Hi." I open the door wider for him to enter but just like last night he stands still waiting for me to lead the way. The sound of the door closing gets me more nervous as I come to another realization that this is the first time him and I will be in an empty house together.
"Would you like anything to drink?" I ask.
"No, I'm good." He tells me staring at me while I also stare at him and now it's like we're in a staring competition.
"Right. You can sit down then." I motion for him to sit as I also take a sit across from him.
I don't know when it got hot in here but it's hot and I really need a fan as soon as possible.
"So I don't know how to say this but it has to be said and done with no matter how difficult it." Matthew speaks after being quite for a while.
"Oh?"
"Yeah. I just want to start by apologizing for Saturday. I shouldn't have done what I almost did."
What the hell?
"And what is that?" I dare ask him. If he's here to apologize for something then he better say what is it he's apologizing for.
He clears his throat before he says. "For almost kissing you."
He's here to apologize and here I thought we will be giving in to what we're feeling for each other.
What has my life come to?
This is not at all how I imagined our conversation to go.
"Oh.." I stammer tongue tied.
"I also want to apologize about yesterday for flirting with you. That was inappropriate in so many levels." He continues either oblivious to how I'm reacting or he simply doesn't care.
I get up completely embarrassed and too shocked to say anything.
What does one say in this situation? Do I tell him I don't mind what happened between us? That I actually want more between us?
"Yes, exactly that." My mind voice out.
"It's totally fine. I really don't mind what happened." I tell him hoping he can hear the hint behind my words.
I look at him and see his eyes widening clearly shocked by my words. Matthew stands up and stare at me like I've completely lost it. Maybe I have but it's better to try than to do nothing at all.
"Nothing is fine about this. I'm the older one here meaning it's my responsibility to stop whatever you think is happening here." He snaps.
My heart breaks a million pieces as I listen to his words. This is not what I was hoping to hear at all.
"I saw the way you looked at me today." He continues. "that look is unacceptable." He orders.
"And what look is that?" I dare ask him.
"Like you we're disappointed that I was talking to another woman who is not you." He tells me. "I can talk to whoever I want to and it shouldn't bother you." He tells me as he looks at me as if waiting for me to be a good girl and agree.
Oh he didn't.
I refuse to let him make feel like I was imagining everything between us.
Is he trying to convince himself or trying to make me agree to what he is saying?
I'm fuming now but manage to calm myself before I talk. "First of all I never asked you to take up this big brother role you're always playing. Secondly don't try to pin all of this on me. You're the one who almost kissed me and dammit you're the one who flirted with me first yesterday." I snap.
"Is that why you're wearing that?" He points to my outfit. "Did you choose those clothes with the thought of impressing me?" He asks coming closer to me.
"My world doesn't revolve around you Matthew. I wore this because I felt like it not because of you." I lie.
"Don't lie to me." He narrows his eyes daring me to lie one more time.
"What if I am?" I challenge.
He laughs and his laugh sounds like a song I could listen to forever.
"I would say whatever you think you're doing won't get you what you want from me."
"And what's that?"
"You're seducing me." He whispers so low in my ear I almost didn't hear him.
I don't bother denying his words because that's exactly what I'm doing. He's so hot I want him all to myself.
"This stops right here. From now on you will address me as your brother and nothing else." He growls. He's so close to me I can smell his cologne that I want to drown in.
His words sinks in as I snap out of the trance I'm in letting out a laugh I can't control even if I wanted to. "You did not just order me to call you my big brother." I tell him.
"You will. That way you will remember exactly our roles in each other's lives." He orders his words coming out forced making him look sexy.
That look alone get me wet on spot.
"How about Daddy." I purr.
"Don't."
"Don't what Daddy?" I ask him biting my lip and his eyes follow the action. I don't know when it happened but I'm suddenly lifted and pressed on the wall. Our eyes are on each other, his cock pressed in my stomach and his lips so close to mine all we have to do is close the tiny distance between them then it's game over.
"Don't call me that."
"Or what?"
His hand touch my lip and that action alone has me exploding with goosebumps all over my body. I watch as he licks his lips then lean closer kissing only the corner of my mouth letting my eyes close as his hands hold my waist tighter.
We both startle when we hear his phone vibrates in his pocket and I want to slap whoever is calling him as he lets me down gently taking out his phone then answering.
My nipples are so hard and my panties are damp as I stare at his back listening to his conversation.
"Kayla, I'm busy with something right now. Let me call you back in about five minuets." He tells her sounding calm for someone who was about to kiss me while I'm over here flustered.
I love my best friend and everything but right now I want to slap her for calling at such a wrong time.
This was suppose to be the perfect time for him to kiss me. God knows I've dreamt about Matthew kissing me since I was thirteen.
He listens to whatever Kayla is saying before he hangs up then turns finding me exactly where he left me. I know we're back to square one and nothing I say will change his mind when I see guilt written all over his face.
"Listen to me and listen carefully. This won't ever happen again." He motions between us. "I can assure you this was just a moment of weakness on my part and I won't allow it to happen again."
This again? I snort totally annoyed and hurt by his rejection.
I decide I'm done tiptoeing around this subject instead demand answers right here, right now.
"What do you see when you look at me Matthew?"
"I.." He starts saying but I interrupt him holding up my hand.
"I want you to think carefully about your answer because this is the only chance you get."
"My sisters best friend."
"Aside from that." I snap frustrated.
"Whether you like it or not you're Kayla's best friend Thando and that means you're off limits."
"Who's to say I'm off limits? Why can't you just admit what's happening between us instead of being so adamant in fighting this attraction between us?" I raise my voice pissed by him and this back and forth between us.
"There's absolutely nothing between us!! You asked what I see when I look at you and I gave you an answer. It's not my fault that you don't like my answer and that you're delusional." He shouts and I'm caught off guard because this is a side of him I've never witnessed.
One tear falls of followed by two and I wipe them angrily not wanting him to see me crying like this.
"I wouldn't have pushed this conversation if I wasn't sure about your feelings towards me Matthew." I say refusing to let him go without hearing me. "You and I both know something is happening here, difference is I'm not a coward to admit it."
"You don't know shit about my feelings."
"Just go." I tell him embarrassed with the whole thing happening right now.
"T-th." He attempts saying my name but I don't give him a chance.
"Now Matthew." I snap.
I walk to the door opening it wider for him and wait patiently as he gets out but remain at the door.
"Unlike you I'm brave enough to say what I want and that's you but rest assured big brother after today I'm completely over you." I tell him before I slam the door right in his face.
Before him I didn't slam doors this much but something about him has me slamming doors frequently for my liking.
How dare he tells me what I feel is delusional?
The nerve.
I pace around my living room unable to stop my racing heart.
"And he wants me to call him big brother. The nerve he have." I say to no one in my house.
That's it I'm over Matthew Waters.
I take my phone on the coffee table and text Lucas, the guy from the gym who's been asking me out for months but I've rejected him because of my obsession with a guy who clearly wants nothing to do with me.
Me: Hi, Thando here. I was wondering if you still wanted to go out with me?
I hit send before I change my mind waiting as the bubbles appears. Before a minute goes by my phone buzz with a text from Lucas.
Lucas: Of course. You know I won't say no. Do you have a place in mind? And when would you like to go out?
Me: Saturday. Seven pm. Let's dine at Matthews Restaurants.
Lucas: Can't wait. Send me your address so I can fetch you.
Me: No need. I'll meet you there.
Lucas: Can't wait.
Take that Matthew Waters. Saturday I'll be dining at your restaurant with a man that's actually interested in me.
This is me moving on. I'm officially done with Loving, Mr Waters but I'm not letting him off the hook easily. Saturday he will see me moving on and I pray with every language that he is there.
"Are we making him jealous?" My subconscious asks.
"We sure are." I answer.