Loving, Mr Waters

CHAPTER FOURTY

THANDO
I walk out of the rooftop tears falling off my face and uncontrollably upset but more than heartbroken. For my whole life I believed Matthew could be my person but today after the words he spoke and his lack of trust in me has managed to leave some doubt in me.
I don't know what hurts more between him comparing me to his ex or him accusing me of cheating.
I'm approaching my car when I see Lucas running over to me yelling my name. I get in my car when I feel his hands on my wrist stopping me.
"Don't ever put your hands on me." I warn him as I snatch my hand from him and wipe my tears.
For goodness sake, how long will I keep on crying?
"Fuck, can we at least talk about this?"
"There's nothing to talk about." I tell him angry. "How dare you kiss me after I've been telling you countless of times that I have a boyfriend?"
"Don't try to play innocent in all of this. You're the one who invited me on a date knowing that you're in love with Matthew Waters."
I stare at the guy I considered a friend for the past few months not recognizing him at all. I'll admit that it was wrong of me to go on a date with him when I loved Matthew but he doesn't know that.
"I just never took you for a gold digger, the kind of girl that goes for money instead of values."
"I don't care what you think about me and I won't waste a minute of my time defending myself either but for your sake never talk to me again." I get in my car and slam the door hard.
"You're not that special." I hear him saying probably thinking he will get a reaction out of me but kill him with silence as I drive away my eyes connecting with Matthew who's standing by the gym door.
I sure know how to attract fools.
I call Kayla the minute I drive out of the parking lot and wait as it rings three times before she answers cheerfully.
"Hey babes, what's up?"
"Hey, are you at home?" I clear my throat so she doesn't hear that I'm crying.
"Yes, Thando what's wrong?" She asks suddenly and I can't help the sob that I let out.
"Is it okay if I spend the night at yours?" I ask her instead of answering her question.
"Of course, do you want me to tell Jasmine to come over as well?"
"Yes, please."
"Alright babes. Whatever it is that's wrong we will fix it and know that I love you."
"I know and I love you too." I say and hang up before I completely lose it.

Ten minutes later I arrive at Kayla's estate and as soon as I get out of my car I see both of my friends walking towards me and hugging me tightly. I don't even try to be strong as I wrap my arms tightly at the and crying.
"Oh babes. What's wrong?" Jasmine asks me as I pull from our hug wiping my tears.
"Let's talk inside." I tell them both of them as I enter Kayla's home. Both of my friends join me as I sit on Kayla's carpet in her living room watching me cautiously.
"Matthew and I broke up today." I blurt to the both of them.
I look at them waiting for their but instead met with Kayla who's looking at me eye wide open and Jasmine who's mouth is open in shock.
"Clearly I heard you wrong." Jasmine finally breaks the silence as she looks between me and Kayla then back at me again. "You're joking, right?"
"I wish I was." I whisper through tears.
"Alright." Kayla exhales a long breath. "Tell us everything."
I replay everything that happened today and decide to tell them about yesterday as well and both my friends just sit there listening with their eyes wide open.
I know ladies, I know.
"Why are man so stupid?" Jasmine questions as she holds my hand. "No offense Kayla but your brother is a fool for reacting the way he did."
"Totally agree. I mean I understand his past and all that but for him to accuse you like that is totally not acceptable."
"Honestly, what is about man and their lack of communication? I mean it's not that hard to communicate!!" Jasmine mutters to herself and both Kayla and I stare at each other knowingly.
This is more than Matthew and I guess the prefect time for her to vent as well.
"How are you really feeling?" Kayla asks. "And don't lie and downplay your feelings, I know and see how much you love my brother."
"Honestly, I can't put my emotions into words. Shock comes close to how I feel. I guess I've never been that shocked by someone in my life." I tell her as I shake my head. "Shocked by his words and how convinced he was that I was truly cheating on him without even a bit of doubt."
"I know what you mean and believe me I would be shocked too." Kayla wipes my tears.
"Best believe we're going to work hungover tomorrow because I'm fetching us some bottle of wines and glasses." Jasmine announces before she stands up and walks to the kitchen.
I look at my friend who's chewing her bottom lip realizing how hard this must be for her.
"You know, I wouldn't be mad if you called your brother or went to check up on him." I tell her honestly not wanting her to feel like she has to choose sides.
"I won't lie, I'm thinking about it." She tells me. "And please don't take this in the wrong way, I fully support your decision but are you sure this is what you really want?"
"I don't know but what I do know is that I don't want to be with someone who is constantly comparing me to their ex and not trusting me at all. I don't want to tiptoe around Matthew for the rest of my life."
We both say nothing as Jasmine joins us on the carpet holding two bottle of wine, ice cream and glasses.
"Thank you for bringing this." I tell my friend as I pour myself a glass of wine and take a much needed sip.
"But you would consider forgiving him if he worked on his trust issues, right?" Kayla asks as she take a sip of her own.
"I know what you're doing."
"What?" She asks me innocently but I don't miss her smile.
Jasmine adds in. "It's pretty obvious Kayla."
"To be fair I love the both of you so much and I'm really rooting for your relationship. After the longest time my brother is carefree, all smiley and at his happiest. You make him and my nephew so happy and they've never experienced that ever." She tells me as she gets teary eyed and I feel my eyes welling up with tear again.
"And you, somehow you're more happy too since you've been with Matthew and I saw the way your eyes would light up every time you're in the room that my brother and nephew are in. You love them so much and it shows in everything you do." She continues through her tears and I nod through mine because she's right.
There's no question about my love for Matthew, he's the only man in my life other than my father that I love. Him and Trey. I love him so much and want a life with him but after today the possibility of us being together don't seem as endless as they used to.
My phone rings right next to me, the name Matthew popping up and simply ignore him drinking my wine.
"Just know that whatever decision you make, I will always support you." Kayla tells me and I love her more.
"She meant to say we will always support you." Jasmine tells me as she looks at Kayla unimpressed.
God, I love my friends.
"And I love you both so much, thank you for sitting here and crying with me." I tell them as my phone starts ringing again.
"Aren't you gonna answer that?" Jasmine asks me.
"No." I tell her as I put it on flight mode.
"I guess love alone isn't enough, is it?" Jasmine suddenly says with a distant look and I stare at her nodding because if anyone knows that it's the all of us.