Loving, Mr Waters

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

THANDO
I can't even describe the emotions I'm feeling as I walk into Matthew's kitchen opening the fridge and almost drink the whole bottle of water in a go. I wait for the man that has me feeling so worked up to appear but he's nowhere to be found.
He better not be talking to that woman that lacks manners.
Matthew appears as I put the bottle on the counter looking ruffled. I watch him as he takes calculated steps to where I'm standing but stops himself halfway probably seeing the disapproving look I give him.
He sighs as he leans by the kitchen door. "Baby, you need to believe me when I say I didn't kiss Miranda and that everything she said was not true at all."
I answer with certainty. "I know that."
I know with certainty that Matthew would never pursue anything with Miranda, let alone invite her in his home where his son lives.
"Then why are you looking at me like that?"
"How long will this keep going on Matthew?"
He looks at me as if he has no clue what I'm talking about.
Is he really that clueless?
"What are you talking about?" He asks looking very confuse.
"I'm talking about Miranda. Exactly what are you planning to do to stop her from acting like a crazy person?"
He sighs again, this time moving to sit down on one of the chairs by the counter.
"Honestly, I don't know. I'm thinking about getting a restraining order."
"Is that wise though?"
He answers angry. "What do you mean Thando? You saw for yourself what she did today. What if she does something worse, like kidnapping Trey?"
"God forbid that won't happen. What I'm saying is at the end of the day she is Treys mother and he will ask about her one of the days. What will you tell him when that day comes?" I ask this time keeping my voice gentle.
"I don't know and I'm pretty sure that he will be asking me about her soon."
"What makes you so sure he will?"
Why is he so confidence all of a sudden that Trey will ask him about Miranda? Did something happen that I know nothing about?
"Miranda came to Treys school."
"What?"
To say I'm stunned is an understatement. She sure is a woman determined that one, I'll give her that.
"When was this?"
"Friday."
"Last week Friday?"
"Yes."
"And?" I ask as I sit down next to him joining him.
"So she came to Treys school and apparently it wasn't her first time coming there. Trey saw her but I quickly told him to go to the car because I didn't want him to interact with her."
"Good, you did good." I see him smiling as he looks at me. "What?"
He asks in amusement. "Will you let me finish or will you keeping interrupting me?"
"Sorry."
I put my hand on my mouth so that I don't say anything.
"So I'm exchanging words with her, telling her to go home but I guess Trey saw how angry I was which is why he got out of the car and asked Miranda who she was."
I wait to hear him say more but he's quite.
I practically raise my voice at him, wanting to know more. "And?"
He giggles before answering. "Jesus, you're impatient woman."
"Matthew." I say his name giving him my best don't play with me look.
"Then she introduced herself as his mother."
"Oh my god." I say widening my eyes. "The audacity she has. And what did Trey say?"
"Nothing. I told him to go back inside the car but he wanted to go pee. God, I should have said no. That way the accident wouldn't have happened if only I just drove us home immediately." He tells me pain and regret evident in his voice.
My heart breaks in pieces as I watch him in so much pain.
I put my hand on his. "You didn't know that would happen babe. You can't blame yourself for something you had no control over."
"I never want to go through that fear again in my life Thando. I can't ever lose my child. Especially not to Miranda."
"And you won't." I assure him. "Do you think Trey understood what Miranda meant when she said she's his mother?"
"He's very clever and like I told you he will ask about her one of these days. I guess right now he's just focusing on getting better."
"I have full faith that when that day comes you will tell him what you know is best for him." I tell my boyfriend as I play with his hair.
"I hope so baby, I hope so."
"I have a request though." I say lightly trying to lighten the mood.
He looks at me as if trying to read me. "What is it?"
"That woman is not to put her lips anywhere near you again, ever."
I mean every word. I know Miranda kissed Matthew intentionally, the woman saw me approaching then yanked Matthew to her desperate lips then had the nerve to tell me Matthew kissed her and called her to come to his house.
Matthew looks at me then takes my hand and pull me to his lap. "Jealous much?"
"Totally. Only I get to kiss you." I stare at him his eyes dancing with amusement.
"Prove it."
Matthew lean closer to my mouth and I comply by locking my lips with his. Our tongues roll and lap together in a steady pace as his hands find my ass and squeeze it. My clit throb immediately when he bite my tongue and one of his hand find my breast and knead it.
Good God, this right here is heaven.
"Thando." He growls my name as he lifts me and put me on the counter kissing me with everything he has. "Fuck baby, I miss being this close to you."
"I'm here." I pant as his lips nibble my neck and bite in a delicious way that have me moaning low.
"Let's go somewhere private." I try to get down but he stops me.
"Wait,"  He says in between his neck kissing and neck. "I have something important to talk to you about first."
I yank him to look at me. "What is it?"
"I'm thinking about taking you away one of these weekends."
Matthew stares at me with eyes full of lust.
Who knew I could make him feel this way? Because it certainly isn't me.
My whole body buzz with excitement as I listen to his words. "Yeah, where?"
"Somewhere outside the country. We just have to wait until my little man is fully recovered and I'm done dealing with my crazy ex."
"Can I choose a place this time around?" I ask as I put my hands inside his top running my hands through his chest.
"Absolutely not."
"But."
Matthew put one of his finger on my mouth shushing me.
"I promise after this trip you can choose our many upcoming trips. This is one of the trip that I have to fully plan for you without your knowledge."
I plant a soft kiss on his lips. "You'll kill me with your surprises."
"You'll love this one, I wouldn't insist if it wasn't important baby."
We stare at each other and in that moment it feels like we're in our own little world.
For some reason my skin get goosebumps by his stare. I don't know how I know this but I know by looking at his eyes that he really needs me to allow him to surprise me because for unknown reasons it's that important to him.
"Alright but me and Trey are planning our next trip."
"Do you realize how rare and special you are?" Matthew ask as he fix my hair.
I stop breathing for a minute when I hear his words tongue-tied.
"Not many people can love and accept a child so wholeheartedly as you do. It goes unnoticed how much you include my son in everything you do and the love you have for him."
"I love him so much."
And that's the truth. How can I not?
I would be a liar if I claimed to love Matthew without loving his son. I love both of them wholeheartedly and see them as my family.
"Thank you for that baby. It's means everything to me." He says kissing my forehead lovingly.
"You don't ever have to thank me for loving and caring for Trey Matthew."
I take his face in my hands kissing him. This man and his son are my everything and as we kiss I get the urge to tell him that I love him. I decide then as we kiss that it's about time he knows how I feel about him.
"Matthew." I stop our kiss staring in the eyes of the man I love, ready to confess my love for him.
"Yes baby?"
Heart beating and racing I gather the courage then say. "I....I." I'm about to say the three words when Matthew shakes his head. I'm pretty sure that as he looks at me he knows exactly what I want to say to him.
"Don't."
I stare at him confused but more than that hurt.
What the fuck?
"What.." I ask as I push him getting off the counter. "What do you mean don't?"
"Just that." He tries to take my hand in his but I don't allow him as I move away from his reach. "Don't say those words to me just yet Thando."
"Are kidding me?" I wait for him to say something but he just continue shaking his stubborn head. "I can't believe you right now." I shake my head and walk away. I run upstairs packing some of my belongings and walk back downstairs kissing a sleeping Trey on the couch. Matthew appears just then and startle when he sees me holding my bag.
He asks me panicking. "Where are you going?"
"Home. I'm tired of this back and forth between us Matthew. I'm tired of being with someone who's unsure of their feelings for me." I tell him disappointed as I walk outside and get inside my car. I see him coming after me but I quickly start my car and drive away leaving him talking words I can't make out. Tears start falling down my face. immediately as I drive away hurt by his rejection My phone immediately rings his name popping up and I just glance at it and press decline not in the mood to talk to him.
Not right now Mr Waters, not right now.