Loving, Mr Waters

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

MATTHEW 
Thando is looking at me waiting for me to give her an answer which I don't know how to answer.
How do I confess to her that my feelings for her scares me day by day?
That even though I know she's not Miranda I can't help being scared of getting my heart broken again?
I sigh deciding to confess just a bit. "After my breakup with Miranda I vowed to never fall in love again but..." I pause briefly. "But somehow you're breaking down my walls day by day and that scares the hell out of me." I finally confess.
Thando's eyes bulge as if she didn't expect me to say those words. Honestly even I'm surprised by my honesty but I know if I want a relationship with her I've got to learn how to communicate by fears.
"I'm not Miranda Matthew. I would never hurt you on purpose." She tells me as she holds my hand tight.
"I know baby but what she did really fucked me up."
"Will you ever tell me what she did?"
"Yes. One day I will, promise." I answer her grateful for her patience.
Our waiter arrives with our food and we dig in both of us deep in thoughts. After eating I decide this is the right time to finally ask her what I've wanted to ask for the longest time.
I take Thando's hand in mine staring deep in her eyes that holds so much comfort and light.
"Thando." I say her name nervously.
Why the hell is my heart racing this much?
"Because you're taking a leap of faith after a very long time and with a girl you're falling for." My heart answers.
"Matthew." She answers sweetly.
"I know I come with a lot of baggage and I haven't treated you properly over the few weeks but I promise if you give me a chance everyday I will do everything in my power to be the best boyfriend for you. What I'm trying to say is.." I stammer a bit but force the words out. "Will you be my girlfriend?" I ask her my hands sweating as I wait for her to say something  but she's just staring at me. "Babe?"
After a bit of silence she says. "Define baggage."
Well I certainly didn't expect that but I give her an answer anyway. "I told you I have some trust issues which I'm working on but other than that I have a son. One that I don't count as a baggage. What I mean is, it won't be easy for you to be in a relationship with me. Especially because I'm a single parent." I tell her.
"Good cause I'd slap you if you referred to Trey as a baggage." She tells me seriously and my heart warms again with the love she has for my son.
"I'm not perfect Matthew." She continues. "I also have issues which I work on everyday. Maybe we both don't deserve each other but that's fine because I'm still willing to take a chance on you. So yes I'll be your girlfriend." She smiles shyly at me.
My heart swell with a feeling that I can only describe as pure happiness. I realize then that I haven't felt this happy in a long time but here I am in Utah feeling so blessed to have this woman as mine.
"You positive?" I ask her just to be sure and she smiles then nods her confirmation making me smile broadly.
I stand up walking to her side taking her hand in mine and she stands as well. I hug her tightly relishing in the feeling she's giving me and this moment we're sharing.
We dance right there no music, the stars and I wouldn't want it any other way.

The following day starts with us fucking each other's brains out, followed with working out together then a stroll around the neighborhood hand in hand and enjoying some of the finest food. We're now back in LA in my car as I drive us to her place hand in hand both of us clearly not ready to let each other go yet.
"Penny for your thoughts?" I ask sensing her mind is in deep thoughts.
"Just a penny?" She asks playfully which brings a smile on my face.
"A thousand then?" I say just as playful.
"I guess that's acceptable. Back to your question though I'm just thinking about how I'm not ready for the weekend to end."
"I know baby, even I'm not ready but I promise to make time for us to see each other during the week." I tell her my mind already planning for our next time together.
"Okay."
We finally arrive at her house and I walk her to the door but not getting inside.
"Aren't you coming in?"
"No. Once I enter I won't be able to leave you at all plus I have to pick Trey at my parents house."
"Okay I understand." She says but I can see a bit of sadness in her eyes.
I suddenly remember a gift I bought her yesterday but couldn't give it to her because we couldn't keep our hands to ourselves.
"I have something for you but it's in the car. Let me quickly run off to get it." I don't give her a chance to reply as I run to the car and take the box with me. I find her still standing at the door her eyes seeing the box in my hands curiosity marking her face.
I open the box which consist of two matching necklaces that I bought for us showing her. "I bought us this matching necklaces as a sign of our commitment to each other." I tell her already putting one on her neck.
The necklaces both has our initials but I give her the one that has mines and bend down so she can put the one that has her initials on my neck.
"You like them?" I ask her unsure what her take is on this.
"I love them. Thank you." She says as she play with her diamond necklace. "Be prepared to see this necklace on my neck all the time."
"Now that I don't mind." I tell her as I take her lips on mine loving her taste and how good her ass feels on my hands.
"I have to go baby. I'll call you later so we can talk before bed." I say in between our kiss.
"Okay." She says as she moves away from me. "Kiss Trey on my behalf."
"I'll do that." I tell her. "Get inside and lock the door."
The door is halfway closed when I put my feet stopping her from completely closing it then pull her to me kissing her one more time.
I'm addicted to Thando Khumalo's lips and taste.
"Okay I'm going." I say still kissing her and we laugh as we continue kissing unable to stop.
"Okay. You really need to go." Thando pushes me off then close the door leaving me alone on her door.
After making sure her door is locked I finally walk back to the car smiling all the way as I drive to my parents house.
I'm officially whipped and I love it.