Loving, Mr Waters

CHAPTER TEN

THANDO
My whole body is on fire as I try to move but it's impossible with the weight that is pressed on my body. I peel my eyes open taking in the room I'm sleeping in. I panic for a minute before a snoring Matthew next to me ease that panic away.
I giggle as I listen to his snoring and take in his features.
God, he is truly mighty fine.
I trace his lips with my fingers moving his curly hair that is on his face and his mouth curve as he smiles at something he's clearly dreaming about. He's so cute.
His body is pressed tightly to me as if to make sure he hears me if I try to make a move. I sit there blushing imagining all the dirty deeds we did last night and at dawn too. Matthew and I couldn't get enough of each other, we fucked three more times before we finally slept and it was pure bliss. I've never felt to connected and so in tune with someone as I am with him before. I don't know whether that is because he is Matthew who I've been in love with since I was young or it's because we really are connected on a deeper level. I reminisce about all the dirty words he said to me last night and how good he fucks.
I think I'm officially dickmatized.
Dear Lord the man can fuck. He fucked me so good I can still feel him in all the right places.
I trying moving out of his grip but fail.
Well I guess I'll be over here dying of heat as he peacefully sleeps.
"Trying to run away?" His sleepy deep voice greet me as our eyes connect while he smiles that smile of his that has all of my woman parts mushy right away.
"No. I was actually feeling overheated with your snuggling." I answer him hoping he doesn't confuse my answer as to say I don't like snuggling because I really looove his snuggles which is why I add. "Not that I mind your snuggles."
"So you enjoy me cuddling all over you then?"
"Very much." I blush.
Ugh! This man knows how to get to me.
"Good because there're still many more cuddles you'll be getting from me." He says the words as he moves closer to me as if he's not already pressed flat to me.
Wait a minute.
Did he just say I'll be getting more cuddles from him? So this is really more than just one night? He truly does feel something for me?
Right, right?
"You're overthinking." He points out exactly my thoughts and I nod agreeing with him.
"About what?"
"Us." I answer my nerves threatening to hit me full force. Matthew touches my chin as he kiss me silencing my thoughts. We kiss for a good minute before remembering we didn't brush our teeth. I try pulling from our kiss but he deepens our kiss halting my movement with him skillful mouth. My body comes to life with the passion he's  kissing me with and I feel myself getting wet.
Am I ever going to be in a room with this man and not get wet? Absolute not.
"Good morning my drug." He says as he stares into my eyes as if he didn't just give me a toe curling kiss.
"Your drug?" I arch my eyebrow at him urging him to go on.
"Yes. You're my drug. I'm so addicted to you I don't want any antidote. You have me so intoxicated babygirl and I'm totally fine with it." He winks making me blush like a schoolgirl.
"You know? It's not good to not greet back when someone greets you."
"Sorry. I was distracted by this guy who was saying sweet nothings to me." I tell him hoping he will say something but he just looks at me.
Right.
"Good morning." I smile for God knows how many times today. Matthew climbs off the bed taking his time wearing his boxers allowing me to ogle him all the way to his six packs and fit body meant for athlete.
Welp! Did I mention this man is mighty fine?
"Come on, let's get something to eat and then have the talk." He says as he extend his hand for me to take and I suddenly feel shy knowing that I'm naked underneath the blanket.
"Don't tell me you shy. You do realize that I've already seen all of you right?" He ask smiling at me with so much lust in his eyes. I stand up taking his hand as he hold my waist pressing me to his chest then squeezes my butt.
This is definitely an ass man. His hands always finds my ass.
"You're stunning. Please don't ever feel like you have to hide when you with me." Matthew kiss me again but this time a peak on the lip "Okay?"
"I know. You just make me nervous." I answer him honestly.
"Why?" He asks patiently.
Does he really have no clue of how much he affects me? Of how every time he's in the room my nerves automatically take off but in a giddy way?
"What happened between us is a big thing for me Matthew. Especially because it's you. I've always been nervous around you." I say playing with my hands my vulnerability taking over.
"You make me nervous too Thando. I might not show it but it's true." He tells me catching me off guard with the information. "Come on, let's go get something to eat before we faint. I'm famished."

After Matthew prepares us breakfast which consist of avocado, tomato, eggs and toasted bread with coffee we sit and eat silently. I don't know whether I should keep quiet or say something to break the silence but luckily I don't have to choose when he says. "Thando what I feel for you scares me."
I stop breathing for a minute trying to calm down my pounding heart as I  steal a glance at him only to find him looking at me with much intensity.
I guess this is the time to be honest, yeah?
"Me too Matthew." I whisper. His hands covers mine and he huffs as if preparing himself to say something. I wait as I watch him looking at me looking lost. I realize then that Matthew is truly as scared as me about these new feelings between us. Only differences is I've had a lot of time to prepare while he's now catching up.
"For the longest time I've seen you as Kayla's friend and I guess as my little sister but then one day all of that changed instantly." He says rubbing his forehead
"When did it all change for you?" I ask him wanting to know when did he first see me as anything than Kayla's best friend and his little sister as he says.
"On Treys birthday when we were talking on my parents kitchen." He confess. "One minute we're having a normal conversation then the next you're this stunning woman standing in front of me who I want nothing more than to kiss. I didn't pay much attention to that day until the following day I came with Trey at your house. It's like something shone upon me the moment you opened the door, there you were wearing that sport attire looking absolutely breathtaking. Somehow I knew then that I have or am developing something for you." He continues warming my heart with his confession.
"And how does that make you feel?" I ask wanting to be sure of his answer as I run my tongue all over my lips.
"Scared. I haven't allowed my heart to feel anything since Treys mother but you're different. You've always been different. I'm scared yet I can't help wanting to explore this.." He says motioning between us with his hands "These feelings between us."
"I'm scared too but I know I want to explore what is between us."
"Are you sure? Because I'm not just an ordinary guy Thando. I have a baggage. I have some issues I still yet to work on and a son that demands my full attention." He asks me with that intense stare as he continue looking at me.
"I'm sure." I answer without hesitating. "One of the things I admire about you is your love for your son. As for your issues I can only hope you're willing to work on them so that we can work."
"I can only promise to try as long as you're patient with me."
"I'll try to be as patient as I can." I give him my honest truth.
I want Matthew. I want all of him but it's important that he works on his issues so that he can learn to open up his heart to me. I know his past still haunts him but I can only hope with time he will fight it and overcome whatever he is scared of.
I can only hope to be by his side as he does so.
"Do we tell everyone about us yet?" I ask wanting to know where his mind is at.
"Not yet. And don't think I'm trying to hide you but it's because I want us to truly work on us first before we tell the people we love."
"I understand." I answer him.
Honestly I do understand. I mean it makes sense we have to be solid and ready before we tell our loved ones because they'll have tons of questions which we have to be prepared to answer.
"Do you really?" Matthew ask somewhat unsure of my answer.
"I really do." I squeeze his hand. "Let's work on us first then we will tell everyone."
"Come here." He suddenly commands and I sit on his lap which he motions for me to sit on top of.
"You're very bossy." I remind him what he knows.
"So I've been told." He nibbles my ear then look at me seriously. "Is this what you really want?"
"What?" I ask not sure what he means by that.
"Me. I mean are you really sure this is not just because I've been around you for so long you suddenly feel drawn to me?"
I want to tell him I've been in love with him ever since I was a teenager but I don't want to scare him which is why I've got to be careful with my answer. "I'm sure about you. About us. I've been sure for the longest time. I was just waiting for you to catch up." I give him my best answer at the moment.
"Let me take you out on a proper date next week Saturday."
"A real life date?" I ask giddily.
What? A dinner date with Matthew Waters?
Count me in.
"Yes. I want to wine & dine you properly."
"Okay." I answer as my mind already wonder on what to wear. "Where to?"
"It's a surprise." He winks at me and my insides melt at the action.
"Very well then. What should I wear?"
"Anything. You're also allowed to come naked if you want." He suggest winking again.
I laugh because only he can suggest something like this and get away with it. "You have no shame" I tell him hitting his chest playfully.
"I'll show you no shame." Matthew says as he lifts me in his arms and carry me to his bedroom all the while I laugh. We spend the rest of the day laughing, fucking and talking. By four pm he drops me home with the promise of us seeing each other soon and it's back to reality.
Ugh I don't like it here.