Who Would Have Thought?!

Ch.78

-Few Days Later, 25th August, Wednesday

—Katsuki's POV

I stare front of myself eating alone, having my lunch in the dining room of my supposed home, alone in this stupidly big house.

I didn't bother with turning the lights on as the setting Sun is somewhat lighting up the room with it's warm orange colour... even so it feels sad instead of pretty or happy.

And it's cold... I should have shut the windows after airing the house long enough but... I don't got the energy to do so... or maybe be I just simply refuse.

Alone in this stupid house, I don't feel like doing anything, how annoying, it never makes any sense to me what so ever.

I got no idea why they even bought this place, they are barely home so honestly... I'm the only one who really use this place.

We could simply live in a two bedroom apartment and that's it... it would be easier to clean that than this.

...I wonder if...

Will Izu and I live together too?

We can't ever have kids but even so... I don't want to live like how my parents do.

They might seem happy from the outside spending so much time together but... that's just the pretty cover of an ugly book.

I miss Izu... Izu.... "Izu... I. Z. U. K. U.... I miss you."

I still basically know nothing about him... and I feel so empty and alone.

I feel like I was left all alone with a kid in the middle of nowhere having to look after that shorty...

But I guess it's better with her than being completely alone but still...

Inside I feel alone, I just want Izuku to hug me.

Real tight.

I want to be close and I want this emptiness to disappear but it just won't leave...

The hospital tells nothing and all... all I can...

*Deep breath... Sob* he was bleeding so much...

He collapsed... I didn't catch him...

What... why... why didn't I talk more forcefully to him?!

"Why...? I knew something was off with him, so why? *Sob* why didn't *Sob* I *Sob*"

The tears just roll and my sight got blurry... I hate the lump in my throat that makes me choke unable to breath...

Everything was going so well... he held me all night, we were *Sob* together... *Sniff*

"I-I dont get it... *Sniff* wh-why is this happening? Why?" I questioned.

It was getting better taking a step at a time but now someone dig an even deeper hole from where we started... and we were shoved into it!

Why...?

Even crying doesn't help... I feel empty.

So, so empty... I feel like things never going to get better.

It makes me feel even worse... but I... I just have to believe.

I have to trust Izuku... he will be fine...

"But maybe he.. I mean he got into a fucking accident where someone drove over him and... he got back to school so quick and like nothing happened and..." I bit my lip thinking about him.

I couldn't help but grip my clothes at my chest as he flooded my mind deeper than the other days...

"He changed, like he is a complete different person sometimes, but... but he is still... looking at me."

"Yes, I'm."