Clio Stormhell ( Completed ) ( BL )

Chapter 22

Clio

Zilas bit his lips and was a unsure if he would tell me about it. I shouldn't force people pero I need answers and he's the only person who could give it to me.

I turned the faucet off and face him.

“ Look, if you can't find a good reason to tell me why you love me. Then, your feelings are not sincere. Don't joke with me. ” I told him as my feet made their way to the towel hanging on the drawer for drying out wet hands after washing, I dried my own hands and was about to leave the area to see Calliope in the living room when Zilas spoke.

“ It's because you took my virginity.”

I stop and turn my body to face him, did his words just mean that he loves me because I took his virginity? Is he nuts? Does this guy even know one night stand? So, he could be obsessed with anyone? Does this mean his only bound to me because I took his first time? That's stupid. I expected something foolish but this is straight out stupid!

“ You love me because I took your VIRGINITY?” I emphasized the word virginity and made anger visible on my tone. This is just stupid.

“ Oh my god, Zilas.” I chuckled at myself for how stupid his reason was. If ganito lang kababaw ang rason niya then later on ganoon lang din kababaw ang rason kung bakit niya ako iiwan.

“ We could only love someone who takes our first time in bed. It runs in our family for about 100th generations now, from my daddy's great great great grandfather it's the same case. If you don't believe me, I will take you to my grandaddy and have him explain it to you in full details. Grandaddy married my granmommy because she was his first. My daddy married my mommy because she was his first as well, and my brother married his girl because she was his first. Daddy has always been warning me to be careful and choose the right person, he said once it happened I could never take it back. I could do it after marriage but I can't see myself marrying someone I don't even love, I want to feel pure bliss as I watch the person I love walk down the aisle....” He looks me in the eye after a long explanation that I think is not over yet, all those things are too much to take. I can't comprehend them all in one go.

“ I thought it was a bluff, so I tested it out to find the truth. I tried having a relationship with someone without having sex with him first and it only took a week for us to break up. I don't feel anything. I can't even see myself with him. No matter how much I tried to love him I just couldn't, my heart refused to acknowledge what love is. Eight years later, my friends decided to take me to a bar. I paid a total amount of 100k for I don't know what reason exactly, we headed out to the counter and ordered drinks. I was wasted, drunk and couldn't think straight. They put me in the room, with my bodyguards guarding me on the door. Then, you came. They already told me about you coming but my head feels so heavy that I started having hallucinations, my head told me you were my husband coming home from my work who promised me sex. I forgot what we've discussed, I forgot how we started, I forgot how you got inside my room, I forgot everything but your name and your face. ” He explained in full details, as he bit the side of his gum. He was drunk all along? When we first got our first sex he was normal. He looks normals and he sounds normal. I probably didn't notice the alcohol because the entire bar always reeks of that smell even the rooms.

“ You were decent when you first met me, you asked for my name and talked nonsense. You don't sound drunk at all nor act like I was your husband.” I told him.

“ I couldn't remember. During that night, it feels like I was in a dream. I couldn't sense reality. I don't even know who was controlling me or what words came out of my mouth. I— I thought you were my husband and in my head we had a different conversation. It feels like I'm going crazy actually. When I sobered up, that's when I cum inside you. It was too late. I was already bound to you. I can't blame you for it, you were clueless. I thought of discussing things with you later in the morning but you weren't there in my bed, my bodyguards told me you already left around 3 am. And I almost lost my shits, thinking you've abandoned me. That was the first time I felt like I'd kill someone if I can't see you.” All his explanation was confusing but I somehow understand them, all my questions have been answered because of this communication we just shared. But, it's crazy. It's definitely crazy. What did I get myself into?!

“ I know it's too much, that's why I was contemplating whether I should tell you or not.” He fainted a smile.

I'm loss of words. Literally. I don't even have the strength to ask him more. His explanation says it all. I don't know what to feel.

“ Your friends? What happened to them?” I asked him, hindi naman kasi tama ang ginawa nila.

“ They're still with me, why? ” He asked as if hindi siya nilasing ng mga 'yun at na naging dahilan kung bakit nakipag sex siya sa akin ng labag sa loob niya.

“ Don't you feel like they're taking advantage of you? I mean, because of them you are bo— ”

“ No, my brain can't hate them for a reason that because of those three, I met you. Uhm, I just can't. ” He cut me off just to say how he can't hate them. Is he for real?

“ My daddy and grandaddy don't know about this yet, I planned on telling them after you accept me. If they did know about this, they'll force you into marrying me. I don't want that, I don't like the thought of you being forced into me. Let's marry each other with love. ”