Clio Stormhell ( Completed ) ( BL )

Chapter 61

Clio

" ZILAS! ANONG KALUKOHAN 'TO?! " His father shouted before giving him a slap on the face, nakita kung dumugo ang labi niya pero masyadong mabigat ang katawan ko para kumilos. I feel paralyzed, gusto kung umiyak at mag wala pero wala akong lakas na gawin 'yun. We are at his father's place, early in the morning Zaven called me to be here and offered he'd watched Calliope for me. Nong dumating ako dito, I saw the unexpected. Zilas is with Alther, he was requesting his father to give them his blessings for his marriage with Alther.

" NAKALOG BA 'YANG UTAK MO HA?! " Kinuwelyohan niya si Zilas, wala akong ganang kumilos, nakakawala ng lakas. I just want to wake up from this nightmare, I want to wake up and maybe Zilas is on our bed giving me kisses on the cheeks. Hindi 'to totoo! This is not Zilas.. This is not him!

" Zilas, what has gotten into you?! Hindi ka puweding mag pakasal sa ibang lalaki! Tárántádó kana ba?! " Sigaw niya ulit sa anak, his voice echoed in the four corners of this house, it was loud, too loud. Paanong hindi puwedi? Nanghingi na nga siya ng permission na magkasal sa iba eh.

May mali ba sa akin? Ako nga siguro ang mali, Elodie left me for a richer man and Zilas did the same. Sana kasi hindi ko nalang siya sinigawan, none of this would've happened. Sana kasi nanahimik nalang ako, sana kasi niyakap ko nalang siya ng mahigpit, sana kasi hindi na ako bigay ng opinyon, hindi sana nagkaganito. Hindi ko na kaya, masyado ng masakit, tama na.

" Sir, pleas- "

" Talk Alther and I'll cut your tongue! " They were arguing pero wala akong lakas na sumabat. Tama na. Wala na akong lakas, paano ko ipaglalaban kung mismong siya ayaw na sa akin? Hindi ko na kaya, tama na. Ano bang magagawa ko? He chose to give up, ayaw niya na sa akin.

" Alther, " I called out his name, for some reason his name left a bitter aftertaste in my mouth.

" Zilas is special to me, he showed me what happiness feels like after a long time of not being able to experience it. He made me smile and made me experience new things I'll cherish forever. I'm not mad at you don't worry," I licked my lips and took a pause as tears threatened to fall from my eyes as those memories of Zilas and I flooded my head. Ayaw niya na sa akin, ano pang magagawa ko? Wala na. " I'm mad at myself for not being enough, I doubted his love, I hurt him, I made him feel unworthy. I don't blame Zilas for leaving, I will never blame him for it. " My eyes landed on Zilas, he immediately looked away, avoiding my eyes. This must be uncomfortable for him, I'll end this quick, baka bawiin ko pa lahat ng sinabi ko kapag nagtagal ako dito. I still love him. I really do. Hindi ko kayang wala siya.

Tumayo ako at lumapit kay Zilas, I was looking at him for one last time. He really looks beautiful, no matter what angle. Napaka ganda niya. Mahal na mahal ko siya. I gathered all my remaining strength and reached out for his hand that had a ring, his hand is still soft, how I missed touching him, I miss his warmth. I miss his sweet words, I miss everything about him. Everything. Slowly, I pulled his ring out. He needs to be free from me, ayaw niya na sa akin.. Zilas tried to pull his hand away pero hindi niya tinuloy, hinayaan niya akong kunin ang singsing sa kaniya.

" You're free, I'm setting you free Zilas. Live your life with Alther, don't worry hindi kita sisiraan kay Calliope. She will still see you as her mother, I hope you won't be uncomfortable with it. You're the only mother she knows, huwag mo sanang ipagkait. You can visit her whenever you want, hindi kita pagbabawalan... " I saw tears forming in his eyes.. No, I'm probably imagining stuff. " Mahal kita. " Pinilit kung ilabas ang mga katagang 'yun sa bibig ko.

For the one last time, I want to do this one last time. My hand cupped his face, I slowly turned him towards me and gave his soft and plump lips a kiss. I poured every emotion on that kiss, all my love and pain are felt in that kiss. Everything.

I finally broke our kiss, tumingin ulit ako kay Alther. He was bowing his head.

" Don't treat him badly, kukunin ko siya kapag nalaman kung sinaktan mo siya. " A bittersweet smile appeared on my lips, gustong gusto kung umuwi kasama si Zilas pero hindi puwedi, hindi na siya akin. I need to get out of here or I might cry. I nod my head in defeat.

" Advance congratulations, Zilas. I... I love you, " it was the last word I said before I left, I left them three in that room. When I got out of the room tears finally fell from my eyes, I saw Zern on the exit, he was looking at me with pain in his eyes.

" Clio? No, no.. Don't cry, we'll fix this. Zilas can't marry someone else, Alther was not his first. He can't. " Agad akong bumagsak sa bisig niya, kay laki kung tao napaka hina ko.

" He can't? He can't marry someone else?.. What kind of joke is that?! He can't but he did! He grew tired of me, he's tired of me. He fell out of love. " I cried in his arms, hindi ko kaya, gusto kung bumalik don at bawiin ang lahat ng sinabi ko, gusto kung bumalik sa loob at umuwi kasama si Zilas. Bakit ganito?! Bakit hindi mo ako hinahayaang maging masaya?! ANO BANG KASALANAN KO AT DAPAT MO AKONG PAHIRAPAN NG GANITO?!

(A/N: bebe don't blame me (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) )

" It's impossible, you're his first. He can't marry someone else but you," it was a whisper but because I'm close to him rinig na rinig ko. Why does he keep on thinking it's impossible?! That fucking curse thing is not real! Zilas grew tired of me! He fell out of love! He's capable of loving someone else like everyone does.

I wiped my tears with the back of my hand, gusto kung umuwi. Gusto kung umuwi sa bahay namin, I want to think that all of this is just a nightmare. Baka pag natulog ako magigising ako sa realidad..

Zern drove me home, it was silent the whole ride hanggang maka uwi kami sa bahay ni Zilas. Pagkapasok ko, bumungad agad sa akin ni Calliope. She immediately smiled at me nong makita niya ako, tumayo siya at tumakbo papalapit sa akin, when she got close to me I immediately scooped her up into my arms.

" Asan si mommy? Hindi siya umuwi last night, where is he? " Inosenting tanong ng anak ko, I swallowed the lump in my throat before answering her.

" Uhm, nak ganito kasi, Zilas is working somewhere far kaya minsan nalang siya maka visit pero he'll visit you. Mag vivisit siya, nag promise siya. "

I'll never make my daughter hate you, you're the only mother she knew, hindi niya kailangan malaman kung anong nangyari sa atin. Kahit si Calliope nalang ang mahalin mo, Zilas. Kahit siya nalang, huwag mo sanang iwan rin ang anak ko.