Clio Stormhell ( Completed ) ( BL )

Chapter 28

Clio

“ Papa, where is mommy? Did he leave na ba? ” Bungad na tanong ni Calliope nong maka uwi ako sa bahay after buying some fried chicken on the street. Kagigising niya lang and she immediately looked for Zilas, I guess she couldn't find him so agad niya akong tinanong. Wala man lang 'good morning papa' or even a good morning kiss from her, I was immediately replaced by someone who she met yesterday. Wow. Just wow.

“ Why do you call him 'mommy'? He's not your mom. Calliope, don't call him that. ” I scoffed and went inside the house, nilagay ko sa table ang pagkain namin. Naiwan si Calliope sa may pintuan, like she couldn't believe I just said those words to her. She needs to understand that not everyone is comfortable with being called 'mommy', I don't even think Zilas is comfortable with it.

“ WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE HAPPY?! ” Napaka lakas na sigaw ni Calliope kasunod ang mga paghikbi, iniwan ko sa kusina ang binili at binalikan siya sa may pintuan. She was wiping her tears and nose using the end of her sleeves.

“ I just *sob* want *sob* a mommy *sob*!” She cried some more, her words squeezed my heart. Calliope was very little when my ex-girlfriend left us, she doesn't understand anything so I have to lie. Every time we see a complete family, she always asks me where her mommy is and I always lie that her mommy is happy in heaven.

I always thought I had filled that void with my love but I was wrong, she still seeks a maternal love. Something I clearly can't give her. A part of Calliope's life is still missing and I couldn't fill it. My arms around the tiny body of my daughter, she was in my arms while she cried. I don't want to hush her down because I know that there's still a lingering pain inside her tiny heart, I want her to pour it all out.

“ Why is *sob* the world *sob* so unfair? Why is *sob* bad *sob* kids have mommy *sob* but I *sob* don't? Why *sobs* does Santa never *sob* listen to me *sob* when I *sob* only ask for one thing *sob* since I was baby *sob*. I just *sob* want a mommy *sob* to cuddle with me *sob*, to tie my hair *sob*, to tell me *sob* that I'm a good girl *sob*. Mommy....” My eyes were watery as I listened to her. Why must she suffer like this? Please! Give all the pain to me! Don't make my daughter suffer for my sins! Please... I beg all the gods and saints I could call to spare my daughter from the pain.

“ Look, papa is here. See. ” Pinaharap ko siya sa akin, her face was wet and she could barely catch her breath.

“ Papa loves you so much 'nak. I'm sorry if it's not enough kasi it's all the love papa got, I'm sorry if it isn't enough. I'm sorry nak.” I hugged her tightly, giving her the warmth she needed.

Calliope fell asleep in my arms, the crying tired her out so much she passed out. I carried her to our bed and laid her down, her eyes are puffy and her nose is red. Hindi ko parin lubos na maisip ang paghihirap na dinanas niya dahil lang sa kabaliwan ko noong high school. I'm sorry Calliope, I'm sorry anak. I'm sorry if papa's love is not enough to fill that missing piece of you, I only have a little love left in me and I poured it all to you. I can never be enough.

I fetched my phone from my pocket and dialed someone's number. It made a few rings before he finally pick it up. This is the first time I've called him first.

“ Hello? ” I snapped back to reality when Zilas spoke on the other line.

“ Uhm, Zilas. Can you uhm.... pay a visit? ” I ask him, alam kong bumisita lang siya kahapon pero para kay Calliope I'll ask him again.

“ Sure, I'll be right there. What happened to your voice by the way? Why do you sound so raspy today?” Tanong niya, I just cried and my throat is still a bit lump and prickly.

“ It's nothing, I'll see you here. Thank you Zilas.” I ended the call between us, to be honest I never wanted to call Zilas because I know if I see him more often I might get attached. Hindi ko pa kayang magmahal kasi andito parin ang takot na baka iwan nanaman ulit ako.

It only took 50 minutes of waiting before I finally heard a knock on my door, a smiled appeared on my lips kasi alam kong si Zilas na 'yan. When I opened the door, I was greeted by Zilas who was wearing formal attire. He was in suit, all black and with his bodyguard. Did I disturb him?! I think he was in an important event.

“ Did I disturb you from your work? I'm sorry, I didn't know. I'm really so— ”

“ It's alright, beside. I like being called to your place, it feels way more homey than my own house.” He cut me off, Zilas removed his black shoes before stepping into the house and he ordered his guard to do the same.

“ Where's my princess? ” Kaniyang tanong after makapasok sa bahay, he even search for her using his eyes.

“ Mommy?” Calliope peek her head on the door “ Mommy!!!” She ran to Zilas with a teary eye.

I forgot to mention that she woke up 10 minutes ago, she was on the verge of crying so I told her that I called her mommy and he's going in the apartment.

“ Why is my sweet pie crying? Hmm? Tell mommy about it.” Zilas carried Calliope in his arms. He was smiling at her, a warm smile that would draw any attention.

“ Sir?” Bakas ang pagtataka sa boses ng kaniyang guwardya, kahit naman siguro ako ay magtataka rin kung may tatawag ng 'mommy' sa boss kong lalaki.

“ Mommy.... Don't leave me... ” She cried in his arms.

“ Leave you? Why would mommy leave you? ” Zilas asked in complete confusion. Tahimik lang ako dito sa gilid. I saw his gaze landed on me, just by the look on his face I know he's suspecting me.

“ Did daddy say mommy will leave you?” Tanong ni Zilas sa anak ko. He wiped Calliope's tears and kissed her cheeks to calm her down. My daughter didn't respond rather she just hugged him tighter.

“ Are you working, mommy?” She asked nong mapansin ang sout ni Zilas.