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𝐊𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒 is just ruining the only elixir of happiness right now. Firstly, Lily kinda ditched me for Arithmancy classes so she can hang out with her dear Keke. Secondly, they are going to the ball together and I did not do anything about it.
Finally, I just keep complaining and complaining that Keres and Lily are together and I'm not getting down into the field and actually making a move. I should really stop giving out such anti-heroic dialogues and the next day act like that never happened.
Also, I've become one of those 'common guys', the one constantly keeping an eye on their crush every 5 minutes to see if they are doing alright and secretly spying on them. It's just depressing seeing Keres and Lily having secrets moments in the quiet arithmancy classroom.
Their smiles and giggles frustrate me. I don't like them smiling. I used to be in his place now, I've got a sense that I've been betrayed. I don't care if I'm sadist. I just want to make Keres into a bitch and I want to break Lily for not being with me (Even though it's like 99% on me).
I walked out of class in a mood for a murder. Maybe I should bury a friend for the fun of it. I just feel so chaotic right now. I just want to urghhhhhh KILL KERES AND GO ROT IN AZKABAN. Ok, I need to take a chill pill.
But, the feeling of a person you have known your whole entire life suddenly starts replacing you is just hard. It'll start with replacing, I'm just scared that Keres might brainwash Lily into the next level of cutting of both of our small talk here and there and then I'll be completely ignored.
I can't let that happen. I think it's time I actually start planning instead of just crying. I need Keres to cheat on Lily.
So I need to find a girl that I can set up with Keres and play cupid. Once it works out, I'll send Lily some cold hard proof of Keres' guilt and BOOM! They break up! And then boom! I make my moves carefully and in about 6 months, she'll be spinning in her highest heels, shining just for me.
I'm no longer going to tolerate Keres flirting and brushing against my Lily. Her pureness and my darkness is a must. It's like yin and yang.
I walked after arithmency to the great hall for meeting my roomies and attend Transfiguration class together. The rest of the day was pretty chill. Except for the part when I accidentally walked into a classroom where Val and Diana were making out. I don't know why I just have a thing that I walk into, 'Make-out classrooms'.
