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❝ 𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐓𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔! ❞ my roomies sang as the clock struck 12:00 am and the day turned into March 22. Party poppers popped as confetti flew all around the room. "YOU'RE LEGALLY 16!!!" Val exclaimed. "I can legally have beer" Lorcan said as she took a can of beer and chugged it and he made a weird expression as it ran down his throat.
I am sixteen now, and I feel like I'm lost in some film scene. I'm having those birthday blues all over again. Two years, I'll have a job and I'll probably move out- It's scary that I'll have to be independent. Why is all this for? Living and dying? In the end, everything will end. Who cares about the difference it's going to make?
I took a bite of Jared's freshly made chocolate cake, it was good. I suddenly felt overwhelmed in my thoughts. O.W.L.s is coming up and then there is this whole Lily drama happening still. I- I- feel all this is pointless... I just- can't keep doing this.
Everyone just seems to be having the time of their life and I just feel stuck. No progress, I feel useless, why am I doing all this? Why am I taking so much trouble to trouble Lily and Keres? It's just for the illusion and temporary feeling of happiness. It's just so human.
I just feel like giving up every time I think about this but the electric touch I get from her eyes and her smile. I hate her. Why is she doing this to me? I'm just a hopeless romantic at this point.
I groaned, I couldn't sleep. I rolled on my bed. I tried out every single position to sleep. Everything just seemed so uncomfortable. I feel so annoyed and pissed at life. JUST DIE, JUST DIE EVERYONE. PLEASE LET THIS WORLD RUN INTO CHAOS AND END. I CAN'T-
I woke up in the morning as the sunlight hit my face. I put my bed sheet over my face and groaned as my sleepy state slowly started fading away. I eventually brought myself to an awakened state. I got up from my bed and I saw a bunch of birthday gifts lying on the tea table next to me. I just automatically lay back on my bed. My back really hurts.
Then I realised that all my roomies were missing, I was alone lying on my bed. I looked at my watch and it was 12:00 pm. OH SHIT! TODAY WAS FREAKING FRIDAY! I OVERSLEPT AND MISSED CLASSES. SHIT. WHAT AM I DOING? It's useless now, I missed half of the classes anyways there's no use in attending any of the other ones. I might as well take a day off since it's my birthday. But I have to come up with a valid excuse for Mongrel. She ain't gonna be happy about me flunking classes.
