thousand words (random poetries!)

99: Monochrome

It's noisy out here all of the sudden ,
So much I can't hear the words
The sound I'm hearing vaguely ,
Makes me deaf in utter despair
This crowd makes me suddenly sick ,
The scenes makes me want to vomit
I'm out of my comfort zone , yes!
Can someone save me badly please!?

Hands utterly trembling ,
Feet that doesn't stop on shaking
Mouth that silently stutters ,
Each time I'm asked " How are you? "
So how am I really? ,
A question I don't really know
Though one thing I'm awkwardly sure of ,
I just want to badly go home!

This dilemma is a familiar scene ,
Each time I'm out of my safe haven
Those four corners I'm comfortable with ,
Outside.. it's a whole new world out there
My gadgets I've brought run out of life ,
But I'm patiently wondering still..
If I'm not within my own imaginary realm ,
Will I meet real friends in the real reality?

I've struggled so much in school ,
But I've survive the long battles
I've struggled also at work ,
Wait.. Did I ever work before?
How did I live this kind of life?
It's a tiring life to boot
My silence is a mocking bulletproof ,
Yet my social skill's an incredible failure!

But I'm not really alone now ,
Well.. it doesn't matter how
Being alone is my comfort zone ,
A comfort that's a curse somehow
It's not that I like being in corners so much ,
I want to have friends too you know..
A normal life that's fun and colorful ,
But my life's painted in monochrome!

~ nniiwwpoetry ~ 07/30/24