behind every summer

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

"Dash, are you okay?" Tanong ni Apollo sa'kin nang makita niyang nakaupo ako sa kama niya. Tumingin ako sa kanya at tsaka tumango. "I'm okay. You should focus muna sa paghahanda ng mga gamit mo." I replied. Umismid siya sa'kin pagkatapos no'n. "You should be standing, not sitting."

I looked at him again. "I said focus first on your things. Do not talk to me unless you're ready. You know your school is far from here. Focus ka muna, Apollo." I said.

Bumuntong-hininga siya at binalik ang atensyon sa pag-aayos ng gamit niya. As soon as the room got silent again, my thoughts immediately entered my mind again and I can't help but to focus on those things running in my head for the second time this morning. Hindi ko nga namalayan na hindi na pala ako kumukurap at nakatingin nalang ako sa iisang lugar.

Kahit ayaw kong mag-isip ng mga bagay ngayon dahil nasa trabaho ako ay kusa paring pumapasok ito sa utak ko, and I can't help but to dive into that fucking thought and let myself drowned. Damn it.

I closed my eyes and tried to inhale and exhale, baka sakaling manumbalik ang totoong sarili ko. Pero hindi talaga. I was really clouded by my own thoughts and I can't seemed to escape from it.

"You're definetly not okay." I heard Apollo say.

I finally snapped out into the valley of the unknown and faced him. "I'm okay, Apollo. You should concern yourself, not me. I'm just a mere servant. I don't want you to worry about me." I said seriously, but he just sighed and brushed it off. "Don't lie to me. I know you're not okay. Hindi naman porket katulong ka at assistant kita ay magiging okay na lahat. Remember, even if you overthink and feel that something is wrong, it might affect your work and performance. So if I say that you're not okay, you're not. Don't deny, you're making other people look at you pathetically." He said before picking his bag and his phone and left the room, leaving me astounded.

Since when did Apollo said something like that? Hmm, something has clicked him, just like how Edevane acted a few days ago. Hmm, speaking about Edevane, I'm wondering kung kamusta na siya. Last time naminh nagkita, nung Monday pa. Friday na ngayon. Its been almost five days since we last saw each other. Hindi ako sure kung sa'n siya pumunta since hindi naman siya umuuwi dito.

Hindi ko rin maalala na nagdala siya ng mga maleta o gamit. At wala naman siyang pahintulot kung sa'n siya pupunta

Hindi ko rin alam kung sa'ng lupalop ng mundo na siya nilagay ng diyos. Pero bahala na, wala na akong paki-alam do'n. He hurted me previously and I can't forgive him for that. Fuck him, I hate myself now.

As much as I want to reverse time, I can't. Nangyari na ang nangyari at wala na akong magagawa. He had done so much damage to me and I know for myself that I can never tolerate such heinous acts again.

Humugot ako ng hininga at tsaka nilinisan ang kwarto ni Apollo. Mabuti naman at hindi na siya masyadong madumi gaya nung mga nakaraang araw. I guess he disciplined himself after all.

Dapat lang na gawin niya 'yan.

Pagkatapos kong linisin ang buong paligid ay lumisan na ako sa kwarto para pumunta sa kwarto ni Holland. Paglabas ko sa pintuan ay bumungad sa'kin ang pagmumukha ni Edevane. Nasilayan ko nanaman ang gwapo ng pagmumukha niya. I can't help but blush. Additionally, he's wearing a black and white fitted suit. And its attractive to him.