The Road to Love (Meradd fanfiction) 💗

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I played with my fingers, I was somehow stressed and annoyed, I don't even know why.

"Meredith, what is it ?" Addison looked at me worried and sat down, laying a hand on my leg. "Oh just overthinking nonsense caused from Hormones" I said silent, still fixing my fingers. She sat a little closer and held me close. "So, now we sort out what's going on. Together" - "I don't really want to talk about it. You're so happy, it just would ruin everything again" - "mer, come on, it can't be that bad"  I looked up to her and let out a sigh. "I feel so awful and my mind is making me think dumb stuff and you changed to someone I don't know and I feel physically so drooled, I don't know where to start" I said and she kissed my head. "Well the physical part we're hopefully curing now. What's on your mind, huh?" - "you don't want to know" - "mer, I married you. Of course I want to know everything that's making you feel uncomfortable" - "well I feel like I don' carry my baby, which is dumb because we're married but it still feels like I'm just being a surrogate for your and marks baby and you being so overprotective and clingy doesn't help me anywhere else with those feelings, because addison freaking montgomery, you're totally not the type of being clingy." - "mer I just love you and peanut so much, I would be broken if something happens to the both of you" - "to the both of us, or to the baby, that's your and marks second chance?"

The room went silent. Addison looked out the window "I knew it, that's great" - "mer, I love you both" - "but it's still marks  baby which should make past mistakes better" - "it's not like that, I promise" - "so you would be sad if I just hand you over your baby and leave out of your life ?" - "i probably would be focused on the baby then" - "see that's what I mean. That's what I've been worried about since second one whilst taking exactly his donation" - "mer" - "ah let it be doctor Montgomery, give me the meds, I want to sleep just right now" - "meredith, don't do this to me" - "what do I do to you? Are you now feared to lose the baby? You always will have the right over it. It's your breed, just breeding in me. As dumb as it sounds." - "meredith Elizabeth Montgomery- Grey, look at me, now!"
There was it, the voice I've been waiting for. The strong, mean, usual addison voice. I look up to her. "What is it ?"  - "don't talk to me in that tone !" - "find a point" - "i freaking love you, I never would anything let come between us." - "but will you love me as much you love your baby ?" I look at her with a mean annoyed face "don't look at me like that !" - "like what ?" - "like that?" - "what do I look like huh?" - "ohh that's going nowhere" - "prove me better that you mean it !" - "you're such a tease, you know that ? I'm your doctor" She looks at me in the usual addison way. "Finally, finally I got my wife back, hallelujah!" - "what?" - "I just needed to see you mean and less hearted" - "meredith?" - "addie?"

We both looked at each other before she started to kiss me passionately. I let out a smile within the kisses and then I felt the first kick and addie looked at me "did you punched me?" - "no ?" She held a hand on my stomach and smiled bright "our boy is getting big" - "he's making me going to pee"

We both laughed and kissed again. It felt so good to talk about my feelings, I feel a lot better now.