Marriage #2: My Bodyguard [Ongoing]

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"Saij..." tinitigan ko siya matapos niya akong maihiga sa kama. Hinawakan ko ang laylayan ng damit niya. “I want you," I whispered but it was enough for him to hear.

He was stunned for a moment before he cursed loudly. “What the fuck!" His eyes widened when he realized what I meant. “What did you say, baby?"

“I want you, Saij..." ulit ko ng walang pag-aalinlangan.

His brows snapped together as he shook his head. Parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa narinig niya. “You’re still swollen. We can't do that again right now."

“Kaya ko, Saij." I snapped. “Hindi naman na sobra ang pamamaga."

“Kahit na!" he said firmly. "You're still swollen and your cuts haven't fully healed yet."

Nanubig ang mga mata ko habang nakatingin sa kaniya. “Pero gusto ko, Saij. I want you right now."

He exhaled harshly as he stared at me for a moment. I bit my lip when he put his hand inside my dress. I voluntarily spread my legs when he touched me down there. He rubbed my folds gently.

“A-ahh!" I winced in pain when he inserted his finger inside me. Napapikit ako habang kagat ang labi. It hurts... I can feel it. Mahapdi pa rin at masakit.

“Oh, see?" he removed his finger. “Hindi mo pa kaya. We shouldn't force it, baby. Baka kung ano pa ang mangyari sa ’yo."

My lips trembled. “But I really want to do it, Saij," I said at the same time as my tears started to fall from my eyes.

Humiga siya sa tabi ko at mahigpit akong niyakap. “There's another time, baby," marahang sabi niya at tinuyo ang luha ko. “We'll do that again but not now because you're still not fully healed. There's always another time for that, okay?"

“Talaga?"

Paano kung wala na dahil totoo pa lang may karelasyon na siya? I want him to own me one last time before I let him go. I yearn to offer all of myself to him just once more, for the very last time.

I sobbed as my tears began to fall nonstop. Mahigpit akong yumakap sa kaniya habang umiiyak at siniksik ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya.

I'm afraid there might not be another time... for that and us. Natatakot ako na baka dumating na ang araw na kahit ang hawakan siya ay hindi ko na puwedeng gawin.

Gusto kong sulitin ngayon ang mga oras na puwede pa naming gawin iyon. I want to make the most of the time I can still touch, hug, and kiss him.

I don't want to waste the time we still have.

“Why are you crying, baby?" he caressed my back. He kissed my forehead when I looked at him. “Why is my baby crying, hmm?"

“Nothing, I just want to cry." Nang sumagot ako ay muli kong tinitigan ang mukha niya.

I want to memorize every corner of his face. I want to imprint the details of his face in the depths of my mind. Kahit hinihiling ko na sana’y mali lang ng nakita si Liz. My tears didn't stop flowing as I stared at his face.

Pinunasan niya ulit ang mukha ko at niyakap na naman ako nang mahigpit. “I’m sorry if I made you cry, baby. I also want to own you right now but I can't really do it yet."

“It's not about that, Saij. I just really want to cry right now." It's not about that. Indeed, there is a profound underlying cause for the cascading of my tears.

I am hurt.

He chuckled. “I forgot that my baby was drunk. Matulog ka na nga, saka na kita aangkinin kapag magaling ka na talaga."