Marriage #2: My Bodyguard [Ongoing]

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“Tama na, girl..." Lucy said softly while caressing my back. She was trying to comfort me. “You've been crying for a while now, we don't know what to do anymore. We are not used to seeing you like this."

“H-he... has a wife," I murmured, my voice trembling as tears streamed down my face. Napatakip ako sa mukha gamit ang mga palad dahil sa sobrang pag-iyak. I ignored what Lucy said. “He doesn't have a girlfriend because he has a wife. And he hid it from me. Why did he do that?"

They all embraced me once more as I started to wail. Halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko, sakit at takot. I'm afraid because I might ruin someone else's relationship. I'm afraid to experience what my mother experienced. I'm hurt because the person I'm starting to love betrayed me.

“Jane, tama na ’yan," Liz's voice cracked. She was about to cry. “I know you're hurting but you can't change the truth. All you have to do is accept it."

“I love him..." halos wala na akong boses nang bigkasin ko ’yon. I've been crying for a while now, and I can't stop it. I tear up every time he comes into my mind. Also, the things he can do.

“Pero wala ka na ngang magagawa dahil kasal na  siya at may asawa na!" She said frustratedly and started to cry. She was looking at me desperately as if she was begging me to realize the truth.

“I know! I know!" sigaw ko at tinignan silang tatlo. They were all crying while looking at me.

All of them are also hurting for me, I can see that in their reactions. They were all worried about me. Kanina pa nila ako sinusubukang patahanin, but they can't do anything.

“Alam ko naman ’yon, guys!" ulit ko at mariing napapikit. “I can accept that fact. Ang hindi ko matanggap ay kung bakit tinago niya ’yon sa akin. He knows what I've been through. Alam niya ang kuwento namin ni mama."

Bakit ginawa niya pa rin ’yon? Ang kuhanin ang loob ko hanggang sa tuluyan na talaga akong mahulog sa kaniya, gayong hindi na pala siya puwede. I don't know if he did that intentionally or if he just didn't know how to tell me the truth.

I'm overthinking.

Nakilala ko siya dahil sa tatay ko... at ang tatay ko rin ang dahilan kung bakit lumapit siya sa akin. Kung bakit naging bodyguard ko siya. ’Yong tatay ko na naging unang dahilan ng paghihirap ko. My father, who did such a thing to my mother.

I don't know if he ordered Saij to do the same thing to me. Hindi ko na alam! Puro hindi magagandang bagay lang ang pumapasok sa isipan ko. Why did he let me be like this? I thought he would give me a piece of mind.

Who wouldn't overthink when there are so many reasons to do so? Sobrang dami kong dahilan.

“Natatakot ako..." I croak. “I'm not sure what his and my father's true intentions are. Hindi ko alam ang napag-usapan nilang dalawa." I didn't know anything before they showed up. Basta na lang silang nagpakita sa akin.

“Bakit kasi siya pa ang minahal mo?" umiiyak na tanong ni Cassy at parang hindi na alam ang gagawin habang nakatingin sa akin. “I thought you hated him because he's close to your father? What happened, Shiera? Why did your feelings suddenly change? Bakit hindi namin alam tungkol dito?"

I shook my head and pulled my own hair. I bowed down while crying non-stop. Pumikit ako at humikbi ng ilang beses bago ko nagawang sagutin ang tanong niya.

“Because he showed me many reasons, for me to love him. I don't know if those are real or just part of their plan too. Sobrang dami niyang pinakita sa akin, eh!" lumakas ang paghikbi ko. They all hugged me again. Pati sila ay lumalakas na rin ang paghikbi.

Saij showed and made me feel a lot which made me fall in love with him. He gave me many reasons to love him. He made me feel the feelings I had never felt before. He did many things that made me fall for him. He gave me hope and he enlightened me. Hindi ko kayang isa-isahin ang mga iyon dahil marami.