good luck, babe! - lynn loud

the grudge

talk it out. just talk to her. simple, right? lynn wasnt so sure. how do you tell someone you told you dont love anymore youre sorry and feel guilty? hell if she knew. 

one thing she did know, was that she did not  want to do it in person, but unfortunately for her, there werent any other options, at least according to luna. it was reasonable tho cause she would definitely not forgive anyone if they told her over text they were sorry, but she could ask her to talk over text, right? 

she stared at the one name she couldnt stand to see in her blocked contacts, her fingers hovering over the screen as she thought of what to do. the awful feeling of her stomach twisting coming back when she finally unblocked her, seeing that there was unopened messages she still had left to read. 

nessa
where are you

please lynn

at least just hear me out

11:52am 15th. june

nessa
please dont ignore me

you know i wouldnt do this

7:01pm 15th. june

nessa
what is wrong with you

you seriously belive augustine over me

9:37am 17st. june

she wasnt going to lie, some of the messages did hurt a little, but she couldnt even blame her. she had been a jerk. honestly, the thought of just not speaking to her did cross her mind, but she would torture herself with it if she didnt try. 

lynn
can we talk?

she stared at it for a good minute, but nothing happened and she figured she had been blocked as well, making her regret sending the message. now there was no other way than to do everything in person. no matter how many times she told herself it was easy, she froze and backed out everytime she saw her in the halls. it didnt really help that wherever vanessa went, charlotte seemed to go aswell. 

she still planned to talk to her, but there was never a time she was alone. what hurt even more was the way nessa hadnt looked in her direction once. she was too caught up in charlotte. what did she have that lynn didnt? and just like that, another day passed without them speaking.

this went on for another week and she was really starting to doubt the fact that they werent together based off the way they were clinging to each other all the time. 

she tried so hard to put her thoughts away at practise so she could focus, but they were still there. just when she was warming up. a voice called out behind her.

"hey lynnie" lynn instantly cringed at the nickname, making it even worse when she realized who it was. augustine. "hey?" it very much sounded like a question, but she didnt care. she despised the girl anyway. "hows practise going?" the smile plastered on her face sent a shiver down lynns spine. why was she talking to her and whatever the reason was could she just leave? 

"good, i guess" a silence fell over them, but it was far from comfortable. "was there something?" lynn jumped straight to what she had been wondering as soon as she heard her call her name. "well..." the athlete waited unpatiently for her to continue. "have you talked to nessa?" honestly she wasnt even surpised when that was what she came to ask about. "i thought you got the hint i dont speak to her anymore" augustine rolled her eyes, ignoring her attitude. "i think she has a girlfriend" she whisperyelled. lynns heart dropped, hating the fact that someone has had the same thoughts as her.

"good for her" lynn muttered, trying her best not to care. she dropped the ball, rocking her foot back and forth on it. she couldnt tell why augustine had a hint of hope in her eyes, but it was probably because she wanted something to tell the whole school.

"what is going on here?" margo came up behind lynn, inez following closely behind. "vanessa has a girlfriend" the redhead repeated, but the two others seemed to pick this up in two different ways. inez had a look of shock and a smile on her face whilst margos face dropped slightly, full of sympathy. 

inez shot a look over at margo and finally understood that augustine did not mean lynn. "oh" she mouthed. "we need to get back now" margo excused them, dragging them both away. "why was she talking to you?" inez asked as they were jogging up and down the field. "i dont know" lynn shrugged, making sure to run a little faster than them so she could avoid any more questions. 

right after lynn came home she went to change then quickly ran through the living room and out the front door, making sure to not meet anyones eyes so she could just go on a walk in peace. just as she thought she was clear a vocie behind her called. "have you talked to her?" the shorthaired brunette asked. "who?" she sighed, turing around even tho she already knew who it was. "vanessa, duh" there was a look of hope in lunas eyes, but it went out when lynn spoke. "no..." she muttered. 

"dude! why not?" no matter how hard luna tried getting eye contact with her younger sister, it didnt work. lynns eyes were glued to the ground. "because she hates me! not once has she looked in my direction!" lynn felt her voice about to crack and her vision blurry. "maybe its because she misses you too" 

"she doesnt, i was a jerk" luna found it sweet the way she was defending her, also making her hope even more that they will be able to fix everything. "hurt people, hurt people" lynn took a second to take it in, but she couldnt make it make sense. "what does that mean?" she questioned. "you hurt nessa because she hurt you" luna explained, but it was turned down. "but she didnt tho. i just hurt her"

"look, lynn. i cant help you. you need to talk to her" luna told as lynn played with the sleeve of her shirt. "i dont know what to say" she shrugged. "whatevers going on in that brain of yours"

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