Split Sides

Say Nothing

Why do you do this?
Why do tell strangers your problems but not me?
What are you getting out of this?

As usual, you leave me in the cold
And I struggle to understand
Why you keep doing what you do.
I yearn for connection,
But you give me silence.
I attempt to engage you,
But you respond with neglect.
And I keep opening doors for you,
But you won't come in.
It's a meaningless bond we have,
And I'm sick and tired of it.

You say you have a problem,
But you won't tell me what it is,
Let alone allow me to help you.
You just push me away,
As a storm brews over you,
And still you say nothing.
Then you shout to everyone
How grateful you are for being blessed,
But you won't say why or how, or even what happened.
It's deeply unfair, how you treat me,
As if I'm a burden to you,
Someone not worth the effort to reach.

I hate how you see me as optional,
When I do all I can to be available for you.
I care, but you don't.
That's how it is for you.
I don't know why you act that way,
And maybe I don't even care anymore.
All I know is, I tried.
I goddamn tried to build this friendship between us.
But you don't, and you still won't,
And that's all I'm gonna say to you.

Hi guys. It's been a long time. I just wrote this from my immediate stream of consciousness just now. I've been dealing with personal stuff, and this one is about someone whom I'm interested in winning over, but they have no interest in reciprocating. It's exhausting, being there for people who don't want to be there for you. I don't know why I keep doing this. Maybe it's hope, maybe it's stupidity, or maybe it's the idea that they'll change at some point. But I've just had enough. I'm getting nothing out of this, and I'm just beating a dead horse at this point. Sucks really, because they were promising at the beginning, but it turned out it's all smokescreen and no substance. I have to stop falling for this nonsense.

Anyway, thanks for reading this. I hope you like it.