Eighty Six

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In a couple hours everything goes back to normal, or atleast back to the way it was before, I don't know how to feel about it, I feel like I have to make a big decision right now on who to be and how to act before going back in, I feel like my time is running out on deciding the trajectory of my life because things change so quickly and people expect answers, but i'm not sure I know what to do, or rather i might know what to do but i'm not sure I have the strength to do it.
This past week has felt like a wave, it's honestly been a mixture of all things good, bad and average, but i'm not really sure it's served its purpose, maybe I was wrong to put so many expectations on the week but it was supposed to heal me in a sense, it was meant to make me feel ready for what lies ahead but I don't feel like anything has changed, i think it did give me clarity in a way, i think it helped me a lot with pinpointing my problem but by doing that it made me aware of the problems existence, and now i have to figure out what to do.
So yeah, i don't think this week healed me in the way I needed it to, but i think it woke me up, now, only time will tell if that's a good or bad thing.

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