Minji Imagines (gxg)

one thing is for certain (requested)

Author's Note: I just wanted to clarify for anyone who might wonder while they read this that this request was made back in May of this year when the MHJ drama and Hybe situation was going on.

I don't want any negative comments towards anyone in my comment section, I just wanted to explain this to anyone curious about what drama was being mentioned in this chapter.

While it's okay to have your opinions about anyone, I do ask that you remain respectful in my comment section.

Thank you and enjoy!

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You quietly closed the door behind you and sat down on your bed before running your fingers through your hair.

It's been a rough few days filled with so many uncertainties and you've put on the best fake smile that you possibly could while putting your best foot forward.

As the leader of NewJeans, you have many responsibilities and even though you've managed to fulflil them all over the past few days despite not even wanting to get out of bed, you're feeling everything catch up to you now.

While the girls turned on a movie, you decided to step away and go to your room in the dorm so you could try and get a little time to let all of your emotions out that you've been bottling up.

You covered your mouth as a sob escaped your lips but it only took a few seconds after for you to completely fall apart.

You began to sob and you could feel your chest ache as the emotions all came out.

So many things were going on and you're trying so hard to stay positive for the girls.

You're the oldest, the leader, and it's so important that you try to make sure they're okay, even if that means pretending lie you're okay too even when you're not.

Having to hold everything back for so long just made it all spill out now.

You sobbed loudly, which is something you'd never do because you'd never risk letting the girls hear you falling apart.

But you can't hold back anymore.

You just can't.

It's all too much.

All of the drama that just doesn't seem to stop and the constant impending question from everyone of if the group is going to break up and disband completely.

Through your sobs, you didn't hear the door open or hear Minji call out for you.

You only noticed that she was with you when she sat down beside you and put her arms around you.

Opening your eyes, you sniffled and pulled away to look at her.

"Minji, I-"

"Stop, Y/N. It's okay." She whispered. "It's okay to fall apart. We're all dealing with a lot right now and we're all emotional but you've been bottling it all up. It's only natural that you're struggling to keep it all to yourself."

She put her hand on your knee and gave it a gentle squeeze.

One other thing that no one else besides the girls knew was that you and Minji are dating.

There's been many concerns for you and Minji that your relationship might get leaked by someone out there to try and distract from everything going on and it's so scary.

It's only adding to all of your stress.

"I'll be alright."

"Don't do that. Don't tell me you'll be alright and continue keeping it to yourself. You're having a hard time, that's alright. Don't push me away, baby. Talk to me. You can vent to me, I'll listen."

You took her hand into yours and she brought it to her lips for a soft kiss.

"I'm just so stressed out." You confessed with a heavy breath. "I don't know what to do. Everything feels so uncertain and so scary. I don't know what's going to happen with our futures and with the group. I'm so afraid."

Minji gave your hand a gentle squeeze and encouraged for you to continue.

"Everything feels so uncertain. I'm trying so hard to stay strong for all of you and to just keep going while I hope for the best but I'm so anxious. I can't sleep and I'm constantly wondering if everything we do is the last time we'll ever do it. You know, like every performance or every post on instagram under our group account. Every message on phoning to the fans, every live stream... just evertyhing."

"I know." She whispered.

"And as the leader, I don't have many chances to sit and let all of my thoughts and feelings out. I have so many things to do that you gils don't and every time I do something, I just think about how much I love what I do and love being with you and the girls and how afraid I am that I might lose it or lose you or the girls."

"That's never going to happen." She promised as she held your hand tighter than ever. "I know that everything is so uncertain right now and we're all a little on edge with all of this drama and the possibility of disbanding but one thing is for certain, Y/N,"

"What?" You sniffled.

"You won't ever lose me or the girls. We're always here for each other and we always will be. We have a bond that no one in this world can destroy. Even if the worst outcome possible happens, we won't be alone nor will we ever lose each other."

You knew she was right about that.

Your bond is so strong and nothing can ruin it, no matter who tries and no matter what happens.

"And you'll never lose me for sure. We've got a bright future together as a couple. I care about you a lot. I'm in love with you."

"I'm in love with you too." You replied before cracking a smile as she leaned in and kissed your lips softly.

"I know you're under a lot of stress and pressure but everything's going to be okay. I know there's a lot going on but nothing can break us apart. We'll be okay."

"How do you know?" You asked as you set your head on her shoulder and she wrapped her arms around you.

"I just do." She said as she held you tighter. "It'll be okay. We've got each other, that's all that truly matters."

You closed your eyes, one more tear falling down your cheek as you hoped with everything in you that she was right.

Because you love this life you get to live.

You love your girfriend and your members who have become more like your sisters than anything else.

You love what you get to do; you spent so long working so hard, training and sacrficing so many things to get to where you are now.

You can't lose any of it; you just can't.