After Senior Year.

Tuesday: July 29th, 2014

I've been reading Fifty Shades of Grey all day! It is pretty decent, but definitely very peculiar. It is not like any of the other fan-fictions that I have read. Anyway, tomorrow is Kirah's birthday! She is going to be 2. They grow up so fucking fast. I have so many things to do before I start school. i am still slightly nervous about finding my classes and making friends, but I am staying positive and I hope it all goes well. It's barely 10 in the evening today and I know I skipped last nights entry, but I was so exhausted after taking Kirah and Annabelle to the doctor. I am also very excited to go shopping on Friday and then go to Ricardo's party. It will most likely be my last party of the summer. I keep putting off going to the doctor because I think doctor visits are so awkward...I'm still wishing that I was thinner so that maybe guy would pay me some attention. Even more so, I wish I could rid my skin of dam acne. Nevertheless, I am actually starting to be happy with my appearance and my life. Yes I still want to lose weight, but I have no reason to be ashamed with myself until I do. Confidence is key, and I'm very slowly working on that. I am always on a constant journey working on battling my social anxiety. Deep breaths are key! I think this writing is helping. I really want to start writing again, but the time has been long since I was last able to bring well thought out thoughts to well written sentences. I just want to be a published author so badly. I long for the day I can go to the store and see my book/s on the shelves. It will happen, but it will take time.