I notice that I haven't written in here since April. It has been quite a few months. I really need to make a habit of writing in here every day or at least every other day. A great deal has happened! G fell off the wagon. She got drunk and it was a mess. I will most likely never forget that night. Besides that, I have still been struggling with depression. It is a battle. I am struggling with achieving the life that I have always wanted. I realized something the other day. It was slightly devastating, but clarifying. I was always jealous of my sister growing up, but I never really understood why. I came to the conclusion that I have never felt loved by anyone in this family since I was young. Perhaps I am expecting to much, but I have never felt love from tia. She gets mad at me over the simplest things and calls me names, but she lets my sister get away with the worst things.
Regardless of any of that, I think my main problem is that I am disappointed with myself. I am not as ambitious as I used to be. I am failing at achieving my dreams. I have faith though, I know I am capable of doing everything that I set my heart to. I can and I will. I will get healthy. I will be independent. I will write. I will achieve my goals. Most importantly, I will beat this disorder. I can do it. Until next time. Tomorrow is the 4th of July! Have a good one. <3
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After Senior Year.
No FicciónJune 30th, 2014. My life has always been a mess. From bullies constantly pushing me to the ground to my family pulling me in so many directions I begin to fall apart. This isn't just about all the terrible things I've dealt with, but also the amazin...
