After Senior Year.

Saturday: August 8th, 2015

Today is pretty decent day actually. I almost had a mental breakdown last night, but it was okay. I drove all the way back from Scottsdale by myself and for me that I was a victory. After that I took my mom out and about because she needed a ride and it was ok too. I had a great day yesterday but it was at night that I started to feel down. Everyone went to Nick's and I had already had my makeup done so I actually really wanted to go, but I felt as though I was never really invited and I didn't want to intrude on the group's time together. A part of me really wanted my friends to just show up and be like "hey we know you aren't in a good piece of mine, so we are going to save you from yourself " but how are they supposed to know that I needed that? I wish I could have told them, but I guess I felt that it was wrong to ask that of them.

Regardless of all that, I had a great night before that with Rachel and Gabby. It was so great to play board games with them and just lay in bed as though we were having a sleepover. I absolutely loved it and wish that I could have stayed there with them and hung out because they were they have been making me so happy lately. Also, before I went and hung out with them I went to the mall with the Selene, Raven, and Joel. Jade was supposed to be there but she got the shits. Either way, I had such a good time with them and we even decided to show up at Joel's house and play Sorry even though he told us he was going to take a nap. He wasn't mad though and it was a great time.

Today is Jade's birthday! I don't know if I'm going to be able to hang out with her because I'm with my mom but I hope I have something to do around 6 because G is going out and it makes me anxious. If I leave as well then I'm not just laying in my room wondering everything that could happen to her.
Well my mom's outta the store, so it's time to drive again until next time!

PS. Louis' having a baby!