Ivanov's Addiction

ADDICTION XXXIII

ADDICTION XXXIII

                              XIAN

"P-papa, I made a gift for you...." Mahina at nahihiya kong ipinakita sa tatay ko ang gawa kong guhit para sakanya. I made it last night and I'm confident that he'll love it. Sana nga

This is my birthday gift for him. I hope he'll love it. My sweet smile suddenly vanished when he tore it apart in front of me, looking at me with no emotions, showing no love and affection

I tried myself not to cry in front of him. It made my heart breaks into pieces. Hindi ba nagustuhan ng papa ko ang gawa ko? Was it ugly?

"Stay away you little bastard, I don't wanna see you" he coldy stated before leaving me. I cried alone in the middle of dark hallway

I was only five when my lovely grandma died. And now, I'm eight. Three years had past and that year has been a living miserable for me. Malungkot ang naging buhay ko. I was treated as an outcast in my own father's house

My parents both live in Russia. Both my parents also came from a wealthiest family in town. My dad, the Ivanov's was the most respected clan in the country, while my mom, the Yermakov's was a clan of politicians. Both has a powerful clan. And having me was the biggest tragic in the family

Kinahihiya na nabuo ako habang kasal sila at walang relasyon sa isa't isa.

Just like my dad, other people who knew me will going to throw their hurtful words towards me. No one ever loved me. Ni pag aralin ay hindi ginawa ng tatay ko. Sa halip, hinayaan niya ako maging mangmang

They didn't hurt me physically, but their hurtful words hurt the young and vulnerable heart of mine.

"You're just an outcast in here, why don't you hang yourself instead of pushing yourself to this family. Look at you, a bastard, a product of mistake" my stepmom said it in front of me. Even him, she didn't like me. Kapag nakikita niya ako ay palagi nalang daw kumukulo ang dugo niya

"You're just here for money right? You're just pushing yourself to his family because you know we're rich" I didn't like what she said but instead of talking back to her, I remained silent

I happily look at my brother who looks dashing at his suit. My big brother is 11 years old. It's his birthday and I'm happy that I celebrate it together with them

"Big brother you look handsome" I cheerfully said. Instead of being friendly, he just arrogantly smirk at me

"Oh really? Are you jealous now? You can't have this because mom said you're not a part of family. Then why are you here?" Natahimik ako sa sinabi niya. I was hurt but I didn't say anything and just let him insult me

Nasa hagdanan lang ako nakaupo, nanonood sa birthday party ng kapatid ko. I feel jealous because I used to celebrate my birthday too like this, but no visitors. Sabi ni lola ayaw daw tanggapin ng mga tao ang imbitasyon para sa birthday party ko. Ayaw nila kase iyon anh utos ng mga magulang ko. They don't want to celebrate my birthday too because I was just nothing but an outcast

"Is that the bastard son of Mr. Ivanov?"

"Yes, I pity that young boy, he didn't do anything"

"Bastards should be thrown after birth, why is he even living until now?"

"I bet he'll be a disgrace to his family. If I'm the parent of that child I would definitely throw it"

"He's also disgusting just like his parents"

Napakuyom ang kamao ko at napayuko ako. Why are they like that? Mabait naman ako ah? I'm being a good boy and I didn't do anything bad. Bakit ganun nila ako tratuhin? Am I not worth for love?