You Are Not Alone...

CHAPTER 23

GABRIEL’s POV

I looked at my phone again para i-check kung may text message si Diva.

I really miss him.

Ilang araw na kaming hindi nagkakausap and I’m not used to this.

Before I admitted my feelings to him ay madalas kaming magkausap dahil among the guys who are in our friend group, I’m the one he’s closest to.

Pero ngayon ay lumilipas ang ilang araw na wala akong nare-receive na kahit anong text or chat message from him.

Parang gusto kong pagsisisihan that I confessed my feelings to him.

Don’t get me wrong. Hindi ako iniiwasan ni Diva. Far from that.

Actually, I still receive a message from him from time to time. Hindi lang ganoon kadalas compared to what it used to be.

He still treats me normally. Not special or anything.

It’s just that, it feels like he doesn’t remember any details from that night I declared my feelings for him.

Like it totally vanished from his mind.

As in nada.

At first it was okay for me dahil siguro gusto niya na walang awkwardness between us, but now it starts nagging me.

I feel like he doesn’t really care about my feelings.

I’d rather have him angry with me than him not feeling anything at all about the information I told him.

Ganoon ba ako hindi ka-type ni Diva para wala man lang marinig from him pagkatapos kong taos-pusong aminin sa kanya that I love him?

Man, parang gusto kong manliit sa aking sarili.

I am Gabriel Corillier and hindi naman sa pagmamayabang but I almost have it all. A lot of people told me that I’m so blessed with everything that I have.

But why do I feel like I’m the unluckiest man in the world right now?

I mean, isn’t it ironic na ang tinatawag nilang “almost perfect guy” ay hindi gusto ng taong mahal niya?

Crap!

Muli kong tiningnan ang screen ng aking phone, but no, there isn’t any notification indicating that I got anything from Diva.

Ilang segundo akong nakatitig sa aking phone when I decided to check his activities on social media.

Hindi ko napigilang mapangiti when I saw Diva’s profile photo.

So pretty handsome.

Yeah, that’s the best description for the visual of the person who I love the most.

Mga ilang sandali ring tinitigan ko ang larawan ni Diva. If I remember it right, that photo was taken last year at the birthday celebration of our friend, Steven.

Cropped out from the photo ang best friend niyang si Bianca, who is also part of our friend group. He has a wide smile on his face habang nakatitig sa camera.

I know it was our friend, Ayla, who took the shot. Diva was a bit tipsy that night and I remember singing with him through the videoke.

Sinimulan kong mag-scroll down sa profile ni Diva and nawala ang ngiti sa mga labi ko when I saw his relationship status.

Of course he’s in a relationship.

I can’t help but feel jealous sa lalaking nagmamay-ari sa puso ng taong mahal ko.