My Days With Alex

Tryouts

How was I going to face her again? The last time I saw her; we were in detention together. It's been two weeks since that day, and since I read that note, she gave me. I thought to myself 'Maybe Kelley was right I did have a new crush, and it was the actress but how and why?' Honestly I've been missing the classes that I shared with her, not because I didn't care about her, but I knew she wants an honest answer why I'm being so distant from her. My life is just inopportune right now me being gay is hard enough previously, since my family is so religious, I know they wouldn't accept me being attracted to a girl. The only person in my family that knows is my brother, and I believe my grandpa already figured it out. To top it all off my dad is always up to my ass, and pressuring me to be the best. He says I'll be a disgrace to the family if I let him down. I hate when I disappoint him because he yells at me, and other things that I don't want to mention at the moment. It's just I don't know if I want her around this lifestyle and around me.

Weeks passed and I was getting messages from Ash, KO and Cheney all saying, "where are you, please stop missing class, what's wrong?" Every time I was reading them, it felt like electricity hitting me from fingertips to my toes. I knew it was wrong for missing class because I didn't want to see her and make eye contact with her either. It was a couple of days before tryouts for the girl's varsity soccer team, so I knew I had to show up for class that day. I knew I had to show up for class until season ends. I was walking to the school and my friend Ash asked, "what's up, how have you been?" I was quiet didn't want to say much at all, she turned to me then paused before speaking she whispered "okay I guess you are doing fine." I nodded, and we both walked to class together.

I walked in and there she was sitting by KO and Syd. As I walked fast to my sit in the back of the class that's when I notice this girl was trying to give me her number. I responded quickly saying, "no I don't want it, and I don't want you." The girl turned around quick, and I saw Alex and others focusing their eyes on me. In that moment, it was quick to stare showdown between me and Alex. I feel like she knew something was up. I shook my head and turned to Mr. Austin to see what he wanted us to learn about today, but all I could really think about was tryouts and Alex.

I was handed a folded note and in a quick instinct, I knew it was from Alex. I open it, and first word was "what is wrong with you?!" I looked up, and Ash was glaring at me so hard I felt like she was staring into my soul.]I knew this note had to be from her. I kept scanning at it, I guess Ash was modified that I didn't take that girls number.It's not like I didn't want to, but deep in down my heart, I wanted more than a side chick. It was strange because I knew my heart wanted her the one and only Alex Morgan.

After school, I went to the locker room to change to get ready for tryouts. I was walking in till this freckle girl was screaming at me! I was so confused and the only word I heard out of her mouth was "Alex." Without thinking I yelled at KO to "SHUT UP!!" She laughs, and she pointed at her locker. When I gazed at her locker, I saw those oceans deep blue eyes and long brown voluminous hair. Right then and there I knew she could change my life on and off the field.

All the gals headed into the field yet. I still couldn't believe that Alex Morgan is here trying out. Everybody else was so excited to see her play not just her acting has a soccer player on "Chasing Goals." Our coach Jill Ellis called us in for a huddle. She gave us our speech and told us "be you and stand out with your talent and please have fun. Yes, I know that Alex is trying out she did tell me it was not acting thing she really does play so let's start of with some stretching and then warm ups." I was with Lauren and A-Rod it was always us three, but this season was different it was Lauren's senior year, and she's hoping to play at UCLA. It was a totally brand new feel today we had a couple of fresh freshmen like Morgan Brian, Julie Johnston and Crystal Dunn. However, mostly, I was seeing the fasted forward I laid my eyes on, and that was Alex. We had Christen Press and Syd but Alex was out doing both. For a moment, I was watching her, and I forgot I was on the field, next thing I knew I got hit by a soccer ball and felled to the ground.

The first person by my side was KO. She helps me up and laugh at me mumbling underneath her breathes "stop staring at her; we are at practice, and I don't think you want a concussion before the season starts." She walked away, and a trainer came over towards me asking if I'm okay, and I just nodded and went back to my position. Coach Jill Ellis made us huddle again she instantly said "before we leave today partner up and do passing drills then we are done for today" I looked around and I saw that people was getting picked left and right and before I could blink I knew my only option as a partner was Alex. She walked by me; she had such a sweet smile, and she was waving to me with words come out of her mouth "earth to Tobin! Um I hope you are okay and let's go to practice our passing chemistry on the field." I instantly shook the feelings out but when she said, "our...chemistry" I was asked myself " do we even have good chemistry together"?