My Days With Alex

Listening

I was afraid to look at her. I was determined to face the ocean when I was talking to her. At first, I didn't know what to say, it's been weeks since I and spoken to her. I was nervous as hell to say just one word or more. I heard her say, "So, are we going to be quiet, or you finally going to tell me what's happening and why I haven't seen you for a couple of weeks. I sat there tense. I felt like my lips was glued together. First word was "why do u like me?" I didn't see her face when I asked so my guess it was probably a flummoxed. Next I heard my name "Tobin. I like you cause you don't see me as that famous girl, you have something different about you that I just want to explore about you. I love your smile and laugh, and the best part is how flustered you get around me." I was taken aback when she said that, I guessed she was right, but I never knew that I actually make a girl want to know me.

I finally stop viewing the ocean and about-face to her and smiled. I was lost in her eyes, and it was hard to snap out of it but I heard a giggle and my name. I replied "oh. I'm sorry it's just when I'm with you; it feels normal and right." She took my hand and I heard her raspy voice saying, " I know it's the same for me too, but I know something is going on deep down." I grip her hand faced forward back at the ocean. I took a breath and said, "this is hard. I don't know how many people know about you. For me, it's hard. I'm so religious and this will look bad at my family, but I know I like girls and I have for a long time..." She grabs my side making sure I was facing her and said "it's been hard for me too yes some people figured out that I was bi, and I get to question a lot about my sexuality. My family is supportive about it, but it took sometime for them."

The way she put it was so simple, and I didn't understand. I told her "the only person that know is people at school, my brother and probably my grandpa." I saw this amazing smile on her face, and I trusted her when I told her about this. The hardest part is telling her about my dad. "Tobin I'm tired of sitting her let's take a walk. I want my feet in the water do you mind?" I shook my head no, and I got up then help her up. She grabbed my arm when we were walking and mumble "damn Tobs I didn't know how good your arms were." I chuckle before speaking, "well, you never took control of arms before." "As far I know about you is your love soccer, your religious, so what else can I know about you?" I felt the warmth of hands on my arms, the cool breeze and the water on my feet.

I felt like she knew I was hiding something, so I asked, "let's get back to the blanket." In that moment, I grabbed her hand and intertwined with mine. We walked back and sat down. I was focused on listening to the waves, before speaking. The first word was "my father. I can't let him know about me..." A tear came down on my face. I felt the warmth of it then I felt a hand grab me and holding me tight. I whisper "Lex, I can't let him know about you...I like you and this is new. You are famous, and I'm a normal girl." She watches me, my emotions before she replied to me, "Tobs, why you say that? And yes, I like you too. It's also new for me too. I get that I'm famous and your normal, but with you, I feel normal hundred percent when I'm with you." In the second, I want to kiss her right there, but I knew I should wait. I state with "I can't let him down, disappoint him, or I get in trouble or something bad will happen." She comments back "oh. I'm here for you, and I care about you is that why you missed class for weeks?" I kinda nodded and replied "kind of and aww Lex I care about you too." Right there I knew I had to kiss her even though I didn't know what I was doing I just knew I like this girl and maybe be falling in love with her.

I was trying to stay calm and be chilled about it this. I leaned in, and she must have known I was about to do this, because she leaned in too. When our lips touch it was a spark, and I felt that heat from her and we were so in sync, and this kiss was so tenderness and just ugh I didn't want this night to end. When we pulled apart I had this grin, and she did too, she said, "I think it's late we should head back and especially for me; I don't want my parents to worry." We headed back to the car, and I was kind opening her door for her. I was driving we were laughing and holding hands and sing in sync to any song on the radio. This was known for me, I normally just hook up with girls because I don't really do relationships but with Alex, it was different. However, for both girls, since Alex is a famous celebrity, that means paparazzi. One guy was there and saw most parts and took a picture of them kissing.

When Tobin drop Alex off she got out of the car and opened the door for her and walked her to the front door. She was nervous but at that time she didn't care because she was fallen for Alex. "So I don't know what this means but it's right but let's take things slow okay?" I told Alex that and she nodded yes and added, "Tobin I like you and this, I wouldn't want to pressure you a relationship at all unless you are ready okay, and I care too much about you, so I'm okay taking it slow." I had my hand behind my neck and had the biggest smile on my face. She leaned in to kiss me, our lips met, and we were in sync again and it was the most gentle and amazing kiss. When I walked away I said, "goodnight Lex, sweet dreams talk to you soon." She laughs and said, "night Tobs, and I might get used to this Lex name laugh and okay dork." I watch her go inside before I left I turned my radio to her favorite song and was replying it over and over until I got home. I must have been late because I walked home and my dad was yelling at me asking "where were you?!" At the minute, I knew I was in trouble for no reason it's a Friday night, and I was working on my skills. When I got to my room, I check my phone, and I had multiple texts asking me "you kissed her??, damn Tobin you just know how to do it right?, good job Tobin calls me." I was so confused until I saw the photo of Alex kissing a girl who kind of looks like me. I was so angry and scared that my family was going to find out about. I couldn't even sleep, but the main thing why because I was thought about Alex Morgan and our kiss.