Calum took me out again. And it was actually really nice. I'm falling really hard for him. I just hope he's ready to catch me.
Jan invited me over because she wants to talk about something.
"So what is it that you want to talk about?"
"Jess, I'm pregnant" she whispers.
"What! Is that why you're different around Luke? Have you not told him?" I get up in excitement.
"How do you know I've been different around Luke?"
"He told me and he thinks you don't love him anymore"
"Oh no, now I feel bad. I've just been scared too tell him because we are both so used to being just us. And we've never even spoke about kids"
"I'm sure he will be so excited Jan, how far are you?"
" 3 months" she starts to cry
"Jan don't cry, it's going to be okay" I comfort her. "How about we just sit back and eat our body weight in Nutella and watch movies"
"I would love that"
I set up a bunch of blankets and pillows on the couch.
"Thanks Jess, for everything" Jan hugs me.
*******
"I can't believe she's really pregnant" Calum laughs.
"Why is it so hard to believe?" I laugh back
"Because Luke having a child, I just can't picture it"
"Well believe it" I smile.
"Can I ask you something?"
"Yeah"
"Are you happier with me than what you were with Michael"
"What's making you say this?"
"I heard you talking to Jan the other night"
"Oh look Cal-"
"No just answer my question"
"Stop comparing yourself to Michael all the time Cal! You said it yourself, you're not Michael"
"Why won't you answer my question?"
"Why are we fighting Cal? I don't want this for us! I'm here with you so why are we doing this, I love you Calum"
"You what?"
"I love you"
"I'm sorry, I love you too" he wraps his arms around me.
I understand how he feels. Like I'm replacing Michael with him.
"I've been hurt two you know?" Calum's brown eyes meet my brown eyes.
"Then tell me" I smile
"There was this one girl, Lilly, she moved away with her parents and I haven't hear from her since, we discussed to try long distance but she hasn't bothered calling me or anything"
"Do you still love her?" Now it's my turn to ask the questions.
"Yes, but I love you more" his lips meet mine begging for more.
And I gave him more.
I've fallen so hard and he's caught me.
