It's been a year.
A year of hurt, tears and heart ache. But I've made it.
I'm walking down the Main Street by myself handing in resumes.
No one wants to hire a drop out. If only they knew why.
I've put makeup on and dressed nice to try and impress any possible bosses. But it's not working.
"Maybe you should just go back to school" a familiar voice comes up behind me.
"Schools not really my thing" I turn around.
I turn to see the familiar face, the familiar green eyes, the familiar hair. The Michael who I first met.
"Hey" he smiles slightly.
"Hi" I lick my lips.
"It's good to see you, you look good" he looks me up and down.
I hate to say it. But he looks good too.
I just stand there in silence.
"I went to rehab" he walks closer towards me.
"That's good" I say. "I went to hell and back"
"Don't be like this" he frowns.
"What are you doing back Michael?" I ask.
"My whole life I've never had a purpose until I met you. And I just want you to know I'm sorry and there isn't a day where I'm not. I know I've made the same mistakes more than once. And I know that I'm still in love with you Jess. Ive mistaken my head for my heart and didn't even bother thinking anything through. I didn't come here wanting you to take me back, because I can't expect that after everything I have put you though. I just wanted you to know that I truly am sorry" he bites his lip.
I'm frozen. It's been so long since I've heard his voice, since I've seen his face and like usual I'm not sure how I feel. I want him in my arms again but I also want to kick him in the balls right now.
I've said it once and I'll say it again, I will always love him no matter what kind of animal he is.
Some people tell me people never change whether other tell me that they do.
I did. I changed, more than once.
I think people should say, some people change others are happy with they way they are.
I don't think anyone can prepare for this kind of thing that is called love.
Love is this strange thing that everyone eventually goes through. It's a feeling that you can't see unless you're experiencing it yourself. Once you fall in love you see it everywhere.
Suddenly it's in the wind, it's on a cloud and it's in you.
"Please say something Jess" Michael places his hand on my shoulder.
"You taught me what hell is but you also taught me what heaven feels like. You've taught me to never trust anyone but you've also taught me why I should. You've taught how to love but you've also taught me how to hate. You've taught me depression but you've also taught how to get out of it. You've given me anxiety but also happiness. With everything bad you've taught me, you've taught me some good. And if we have a future Michael, there's going to have to be some changes"
