I decided to go shopping by myself today. I'm in need some new clothes.
I walk into target as I find they have the comfiest jeans.
"J..j..j ess?" Someone taps me on the shoulder.
I turn around to see Michael.
He looks like shit, not going to lie.
"Please don't walk away, can you hear me out? Over lunch?" He licks his lips.
"I really don't think I have anything to say to you Michael" I shake my head.
"But I have things to say to you, please don't make this hard for me" his voice starts to shake.
"Okay" I take a deep breath.
We walk up to the food court and sit at table.
Michael takes a deep breath and finally looks me into my eyes.
"I'm sorry what I did to you, I really am. But not being with you killing me Jess" he starts to tear up.
"In with Cal now Michael, what do you want from me? You completely ruined every little bit of love I had for you" I bite my lip
"Then why are you here? If you hated me you would of ran away Jess, can't you see? I'm just as ruined as you"
"Yeah but the difference is you destroyed both of us on your own"
"Why can't you give me a second chance?"
"Give me a reason too"
"I love you still" he puts his lips on mine.
"Michael!" I push him away
We sat there in silence.
I can feel it all coming back to me, my feelings for him, the memories. Why is it that moments like this I forget what he did to me?
He stands up and starts to walk away.
"Michael wait!" I pull on his shoulder. "Let's talk somewhere more private"
"Okay, how about my car?"
I nod and follow him to his car.
I take a deep breath and dive into his car.
"Can you tell me why you cheated on me?" I swallow my pride
"I was drunk and angry about you and Calum, look at it from my side, you cheated on me first" he runs his eyes
"I didn't have sex with Cal tho"
"You have now"
"That's none of your business" I yell
"Please try and walk in my shoes. I fucked up okay, and I'm sorry. What was I supposed to do just be okay with my best mate making out with my girlfriend? And how do you think I feel now? I didn't even get a proper invite to Luke's wedding, the girl who I am in love with is in love with my best mate, the same mate I grew up with, Jess in the long run I have learnt my lesson, so can you please stop punishing me and-"
I clash my lips with his.
What am I doing? You're with Calum. But this feels so wrong yet so right.
"I don't want to be the guy you cheated on Cal with" he stops "as much as I want it Jess, break up with Cal and get back to me"
Maybe he has changed.
"Can you answer a question first?"
"Yeah"
"Where have you been?"
"I was staying at the beach house. I could stop think of you. I remember it being 2 am and 17 shots of vodka to try and forget about you and the only thing I forgot was myself, and I realised drunk or sober, you're the only thing on my mind Jess"
"I'm so sorry Mikey, I had no idea"
"No I deserved every bit of pain I got"
"Don't say that" I run his knuckles.
"So what do we do now?" He questions me.
"Just give me time to figure myself out" I frown at him and get out of his car.
I can't believe what I just did. It was only a week ago I told Calum that I was in love with him. But I practically just told Michael that I want home back. There's only one person who I can talk to, Luke.
I knock on Luke's door vigorously.
"Coming" he yells "uh hi Jess"
"Can I come in? It's important" my words come out rushed.
"Yeah sure"
"Are you alone?" I look around
"Yeah, what so important?"
"I kissed Michael" I mumble out.
"You what? When?"
"Just then!" I start to panic "I don't know what to do Luke!" I start to pace
"Its okay calm down"
"It not okay, I practically just did what Michael did to me"
"Take deep breaths"
"I'm trying! Tell me what to do Luke"
"Follow your heart, Jess"
