"What do you mean?" I yell into the phone to Connor.
"She's had a girl!" He yells back
"She had her baby? Why didn't you tell me?"
"It was an emergency"
"Anyway what hospital?"
"St. Jones, room 678"
I hang up the phone. I just became an Aunty.
The sad part is I nearly dialled Michaels number to tell him.
I ask Cal to drive me, as he does.
When we arrive I get out straight away.
I walk up to the room.
"In here" Connor smiles.
"Congrats!" I walk in.
"Thank you" Paige smiles.
"How was it?" I ask her.
"Terrible, but it's worth it" she laughs.
I'm so excited. But also quite miserable still.
It's been 5 months since I last saw Michael and I still miss him. Cal casually checks up on me to see how I am doing. I always say I'm fine just so he could leave and I can go back to drowning my sorrows in vodka.
I wander everyday what he is doing, who he is seeing, whether he has moved on, whether he is still crying or if he is perfectly happy.
I wander if I will ever fully get over Michael. He was the first guy I ever fully trusted and he broke that trust.
"What's her name?" I break myself from my thoughts as I stare and the blue eyed baby.
"Grace" Connor smiles. "After Mum"
I start to get teary.
Connor comes over and hugs me.
"Mum would of loved that" I smile through the tears.
"I know. She would be loving the attention from her friends about her being a grandmother so young" he laughs.
"She would" I laugh back.
"Well good luck" I walk out to Calum.
I'm a 18 year old Aunty who cant teach any lessons. Because I can't even learn my own.
I fell in love with a guy who can't stay committed to anything.
I fell in love for a guy who had more issues than myself.
I fell for a guy I thought I could fix but I couldn't even be a temporary bandage.
I fell too hard for a guy who couldn't even clean up my wounds afterwards.
I feel for a guy who couldn't even fall for me.
I don't understand how crazy the feeling is of love. I mean, is there such thing as destiny? Faith? Because if there is when does karma come into play the game? Because I haven't even rolled the dice yet.
