Finding Me Through You

Texts and Past

"They always offer when there's
Loads of love around but when
In short of some there's no where
To be found"

"Ugh," I sighed before covering my face with a pillow. I woke up from the longest night of my life.

I had no idea though, why all that was running through my mind was Mr. Grumpy. I hate his guts. Now I'm forced to show him around. Not only that, he's my lab partner.

Kill me. Id like to be buried on the ground now. This is a living nightmare.

I looked at the clock and it read 7:46am I should probably get ready for school. It starts at 8:45. It doesn't take long for me to get ready because I'm not like those girls who take 6 hours just putting on makeup.

To be completely honest I could wake up at 8:30 and I still wouldn't be late. I just wake up early because I eat breakfast. A lot of it.

I don't even know why I'm not fat since I eat about my whole fridge.

I got up, took a shower, put on high wasted black shorts, burgundy halter top, left my hair straight as always, put on make up which includes: light foundation, winged eye liner, lip tinter, and a tiny bit of blush. I put my bracelets on and put on my high top old skool vans.

I ate and by the time I looked at the clock and it was 8:20. I finished eating and brushed my teeth. I kissed my mother goodbye and walked out the door. I walk to school since it's really close to my house.

As I was walking I received multiple texts. I had my earphones in and listened to music. I tend to block out the world before I start engaging it at 8:45. I like walking to school, it gives me time to think.

I received another text and this time I checked who it was.

From Unknown number:
I hope you have a great day at school today. There's not a day that passes that I don't think of you. I love you okay? Forever and always.

I raised my eyebrows causing my forehead to crease. Then I thought, oh it's that secret texter again. I'm used to him though because I get daily messages.

Sometimes in the morning sometimes at night. Good morning and goodnight texts I suppose. It's just peculiar. It's also mysterious. I like it. Not because of the texts but because I like mysteries. I like to get to the bottom of things. I want to find out who this is. It's like a cyber version of hide seek. It's amusing.

I checked my other text and the other one was from my mother.

From Momma:
Hey hun, don't forget you're in charge to supervise the company today okay? I have to go to a conference and I won't be home for three days. I'll be home shortly, you know what to do. I love you, and be safe always. Like always baby, prove them whose daughter you are. Haha bye sweetie. Remember no boys okay! I'll ask Nanay Sophy.

I laughed aloud. My mother is a comedian. Nanay Sophy is my nanny. She's been with my mother and I since my birth. She's my second mother actually. Trust me I love my mom very much but if it where to the point that I had to choose another mom, I'd choose Nanay Sophy.

You see, my father has been absent from my life. I've seen him before but I really don't much about him or why he left us. I've asked my mother about it multiple times and all she would do is smile, hold both my checks and kiss the top of my head and reply with "you're father loves you baby, never forget that."

I would get confused but shrug the topic aside. I went through my messages and there were three more messages I received and they were from Juls, Marco and Enrique.