Finding Me Through You

Volleyball Tryouts

"So when have you and Kuya been dating?" Miles asked.

We are currently in the locker room changing in our gear for volleyball.

Yes, it's our volleyball try outs right now.

I've never been so nervous.

You see, I haven't played volleyball since Nadz. I'll tell the story when it's the right time, I guess.

But I have a fear that the right time might never come.

"Hello, kathkath?" Julia waved her hand in front of my face.

"Huh?" She caught my attention.

"Thinking about Mr. Grumpy?" Julia leaned on the lockers behind her with a smirk dancing around her face.

"No." What? I was telling the truth.

"Then what?" Julia's emotion changed.

She looked worried.

"Nadz." I put my head down.

I miss her dearly.

Julia walked over to me.

"Hey, Nadz would want you to play. She would want you to pass on the torch. So smile and play your heart out. I kinda miss the sporty you, you know?" Julia tried to make me feel better.

"You're sporty, Kath?" Miles giggled.

"I'm average." I shrugged it off and continued to change.

"Average? Try, expert. You wouldn't expect it because this girl's appearance is not of a sporty jock type." Julia joked.

I laughed, "what does that even mean?"

"Well look at your outfit choices, your appearance. You wear crop tops and shorts and ripped jeans, make up.. I don't know, it just doesn't add up." Julia said.

"Very stereotypical of you, Juls. Just because people are athletes doesn't mean they can't express with experimentation of different types of clothing choices. Athleticism doesn't play a part of expressing ones appearance unless they want it to." I spoke.

"True!" Miles agreed.

"All right, all right. I know, what I was just saying is that if I didn't know you, I would never have thought you played a sport." Julia defended her argument.

I rolled my eyes and ignored her.

We just laughed.

"Still nervous?" Miles asked as we head out of the locker room.

"Yes." I was more nervous than ever.

"What if I'm not good enough?" I was psyching myself out.

"You'll never know until you try." Miles smiled.

I smiled back at her and hugged her.

"And besides, you're the best volleyball player I've ever seen." Julia smirked and playfully hit my arm.

"I have confidence in all of us." Miles smiled.

We reached the gym. To my surprise, there were so many students watching.

My stage fright suddenly kicked in. My stomach was twisting in knots and I was nauseated.

"You're not looking too good, Kath." I heard Liza speak behind me.

"Don't worry, I'll go easy." She winked and was about to walk away from me.

"Then again, aren't you already easy?" Miles asked.