Finding Me Through You

Power of Music

Our eyes never felt conjoined.

Not like this at least.

He tucked my hair behind my ear.

He closed his eyes and pressed his forehead against mine.

For a moment, I forgot who I was. Forgot everything.

I laughed and so did he.

"So my song?" I whispered.

He kissed my hair.

"Right." He took my guitar that was on the stage and returned back to his seat.

What the heck is happening?

I'm not supposed to feel this way. I get it, it's just a phase. It's a feeling of infatuation. I don't actually like him, he just makes me feel comfortable.

Or at least I don't think I like him.

I don't know, maybe it's because he's different than most guys.

Oh who am I thinking, he's probably like the rest of them or will become like one of them in a period of time.

My question is, can I afford the risk?

He sat back down in front of me and started to strum on the guitar. His attention was focused on the guitar, with mine focused on him.

I sighed.

I know this is too good to be true, all my life that's kinda how it goes.

One minute everything is perfect, and then the next my life is literally pulling the trigger.

"Deej?"

"Hm?" He hummed.

His attention never left the guitar.

"Who did you dedicate 'Can't Help Falling In Love' to?" I hesitated to ask because I know it's none of my concern. Can you blame me? I was curious.

He stopped strumming but continued to stare at the guitar instead of me. I knew he felt uneasy because his pupils kept roaming around without actually moving his head.

"Uh.." He struggled trying to escape words out of his mouth.

"I'm so—sorry, I shouldn't have asked." I looked away.

Stupid me.

I still want to know but then I don't. I don't know, I feel like I'll be hurt knowing it. Even though it's an infatuation, what's scary about it though is that I don't quite know if it's just an infatuation.

That's the thing, I'm indecisive when it comes to these romantic situations.

I guess you can say that after all the heartbreaks and tears left to dry you kinda learn one or two on how to protect and shield yourself from all that pain again.

Try your best never to relive that pain again.

I'm just hoping he's different than the previous ones.