the rant book

if ur not ok and u wanna hug gerard way

listen to this pretty song above, too???
ok imagine this:

hugging gerard way.

for an entire minute.

if that's not good enough for you there's more.

he smells cozy, kinda like something you could eat.

but you couldn't

because that's...

well that's cannibalism...

but anyways he smells like home. or that space where you go to be with yourself.

it's warm.
it's secure.
it's consuming.

all you'll probably see is black, because you're practically hidden under his dark blazer.

but your arms are sticking out, to assure any passers-by that a human being was somewhere in there.

his arms are wrapped tightly around your shoulders and he's holding you in a near bear hug- but you can breathe just fine.

you tell him thank you.

he tells you it's alright. though it might not be right now.

it will be alright.

he smiles at you, reassuringly. hazel eyes are looking at you with understanding. because it's not easy.

in fact, it's actually really... really hard sometimes.

he tells you he's gonna be here even when no one else is. even if it might not be psychically.

he holds your hand, his hand is different from most... they're soft. they're gentle.

are you smiling, too?

lmao i'm gonna do these every once and awhile bc it chills me out n it might chill you out too n that'd be nice if it could help us both