the rant book

(negative stuff) mbi (negative stuff)

there's nothing good about me as a human being
like????
shit?????
idk why i'm thinking about this, it just sort of happened.

i just feel like a total shit. and it's sweet when people think of me as a kind person, but if they really knew who i was, i don't think they'd want to stick around.

i'm a cold person. i'm mean. i say critical things and i'm self destructive.

i'm scared of showing people who i am. and i get annoyed when people try and push themselves in. it's not mysterious, dark, or alluring. it's harmful and i want people to realize that.

i'm a terrible person who literally has to be someone else around everyone so i don't hurt people.

i wish that everyone could understand that. i'm a bad person.